I lost my baby at 6 weeks yesterday. I went to hospital at lunchtime and by 5pm the miscarriage had 'completed'. So though it was painful, it was fairly quick.
I think I was in shock, so went into a kind of auto-pilot last night when I came home and thought I was coping. But I have been up most of the night crying and finding it hard to deal with a few things (TMI warning):
- I was clotting during the miscarriage and there were one or two large clots/ pieces of tissue. Was one of them by baby? If so, it means I flushed it down the toilet without saying goodbye. I think I would like to have buried the remains, but no one prepare you for what comes out.
- I didn't get to find out whether my baby was a boy or a girl. And I will never know.
- I am worried that other people won't understand how I feel because the baby was only 6 weeks. Maybe they are right? Maybe it's too early to grieve?
Please tell me how I am feeling is normal and that it gets better.