6 weeks ago today I found out my baby's heart stopped. I would be 17 weeks pregnant today too. Some.days I'm ok, but in the whole, it's no easier. My heart is still aching for my baby. I believe she was a girl, even though I haven't had pathology back. Iv done so much to try and move on, I don't want to forget her, but id like to be able to live, to sleep, to eat, to leave the house without freaking out. I literally can't move on. Its on my mind 100% of the time. I'm living on auto-pilot in my good days, and iv a 15yr old son, so I have to pretend for his sake. Iv stopped caring about everything, haven't been back to work, haven't phoned my friends, even stopped answering the phone on my bad days. I just can't go on like this. Gave been prescribed anti-depressants but I'm too anxious and sad to even try them. Waiting 4 weeks on counselling and nothing thru yet, tho I know with the holidays everything running late. I really feel counselling would be good for me as iv so much built up inside, I don't think numbing it with meds will help in the long run. Sorry for rant, don't even know what I expect to get out of this . Have written down my experience but was on one note so don't even know how to share, r where to share
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