I thought I was OK

[VulvaVoom]

3 weeks ago today I lost my baby to an ectopic pregnancy. I was quite proud with the way I was coping, feeling quite pragmatic and spending my time off work watching Netflix.

Today has been different. Today I was due yo go back to work but I've had some sort of meltdown. I told work I would be extending my sick note, dropped DD off at nursery then went to Asda and wandered around aimlessly.

I then came home and cried while I washed up. It's the first time since I was in hospital.

I can only put it down to it 'hitting me'. I've just found out a friend is pregnant, last week I did the preg test I was told to, to make sure I'm not, and Christmas is coming up when we were going to tell everyone.

I'm just really very sad. Thanks for reading.

[ScottishInSwitzerland]

IT is really sad and it's ok to cry.

I found out on Saturday that I only have an empty sac and my baby is gone. I also feel a bit up and down and I seem to cry at unexpected moments

I think hormones may also play a part. This is horrible sad news plus your (our) hormones must be all over the place.

Do you have somebody in real life you can cry at? I phoned my mum for an hour this morning and told her how bloody unfair the whole thing is

[Eminado]

So sorry this happened to you. Well done for extending your sick note.

Cry as much as you need

[PeppasNanna]

I had a MMC almost 3 years ago. I still feel sad about it. I still think about it.

Allow yourself to grieve for your baby. Allow yourself to heal & come to terms whats happened. The Miscarriage Association were a great help to me.

Take care of yourself. X

[wonkylegs]

Crying is perfectly normal as is a delayed reaction. We had a miscarraige at 17wks this week last year and it was terribly hard. Lots of crying when I was on my own, lots of aimlessness - Christmas helped me as it was something else to concentrate on, I focussed on spoiling DS and lots of cuddles.
We planted a tree to remember our baby in the new year.
Look after yourself, give yourself time and it will get easier, you won't forget, but it will get easier.

[VulvaVoom]

Thanks for your kind messages. I hope I can manage to enjoy Christmas.