Hello all
I had a miscarriage at 11 weeks in july. Pretty traumatic and ended up in hospital on a drip after passing out several times with heavy blood loss. Took a while to move on from that but began to feel much better and we have been ttc again for a couple of months. I had a few niggles and symptoms that led me to believe i could be pregnant this month. But i didnt want to get my hopes up, and then convinced myself i wasnt and felt stupid and angry for hoping. in a fit of frustration i did a test 5 days early purely to see a negative and kill the suspicion. But it came up positive. It was faint but it was there. I got positives every day for the next 4 days, including a clear blue digital. But i never really accepted it. My symptoms werent strong but i put that down to it being early. Anyway. Hovered around sending my self referral off yesterday for maternity care. Didnt want to tempt fate but sent it off. And lo and behold, i get my period today at 4 days late... I dnt want to call it anything else, it feels like the pregnancy never was. And i feel like such a wally for doing an early test in the first place. And then for sending off this referral. I feel now im going to be laughed at when i tell the midwife im not pregnant, it was all a mistake. I told my mum and she has been kind. But before any of this happened she would always comment on how these early tests are a bad idea because in 'her day' you just got a late period and never knew and it didnt have such an impact and that was best. And so now its happened to me and i just feel like such a wally. I had told a friend, and told her this morning whats happened. She commented to say how strange the cleae blue got it wrong. So im really thinking yes it was all a mistake and why did i put myself through it. Im very disappointed.
I am sorry - not asking for advice...i guess i just wanted to get it all out of my head.
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Faybells · 10/11/2015 08:39
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