Feel like I'm in a really dark place just now and don't know how to get out of it
Miscarried at 12 weeks and should be about 22 weeks now.
Today I have found myself looking up how my baby would be developing at this stage, and even looking at pictures of bumps at 22 weeks imagining how I should be looking now. I keep thinking about what I should be buying and should be doing. I know this isn't healthy, and honestly don't know why I am doing this to myself.
I have also recently split from my partner, which I know is adding to this feeling of being so alone and having nothing (even though I know it was a relationship that I had to get out of.)
Haven't had a day as bad as this for a long time, but just feel like I am never going to be truly happy and feel 'like me' again. I have got quite good at 'smiling' and just getting on and telling people 'I'm ok' when I'm not, but honestly now feel that I can't keep this act up any more.
Everything just seems so pointless now, and I genuinely feel that my life as it is now has no purpose or meaning. Can't get away from the feeling that if I was still pregnant it would keep me going and have something to look forward to
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Don't think I'm coping too well...
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SimplyComplicated · 10/07/2014 13:11
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