So I had my second miscarriage about 3 months ago. I guess I was more prepared for it after the first and after the initial trauma got back to 'normal' fairly quickly, work were very good and I distracted myself by getting back into it.
6 weeks ago my best friend had a beautiful baby girl, I'm so happy for her and it's wonderful, but I was really apprehensive about seeing them. I put it off for a month - which I feel terrible about. I was worried about how I would feel, selfish really.
In the end when I went it was odd, I felt nothing. Baby was asleep in a sling most of the time so I didn't have to hold her but I didn't really want to, I thought I would, just felt really empty about the whole thing.
I have started to feel like I don't want to get pregnant anymore, but it might just be denial? Last week me and DH got a bit drunk and carried away 'forgetting' the condom, now I'm terrified, feeling like an idiot.
I really wanted to give it some more time and now I am hoping for and dreading my period arriving equally.
Thanks for reading, just wanted to get these thoughts out of my head, now I'm going to bed.
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somethingcool · 16/08/2013 23:19
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