Sorry to post again but really can't talk to anyone...I don't want to. I lost my baby Wednesday night at just 10 weeks.
I am supposed to be back at hospital in next few minutes to have another blood test to ensure my levels are dropping. I'm not going, I can't. How can I put on clothes I bought especially for the pregnancy as my others don't fit?
I still can't look at or touch my tummy, no matter how sore it is. I am constipated and can't go (tmi), can't even wee without feeling scared. I know that I have had a complete miscarriage but dreading losing the lining (hospital said it would happen) and seeing all that blood.
I think husband thinks I'm being silly and feeling sorry for myself. We've argued, he shouted and called me a w*nker. I am feeling so down. He's gone out.
Even stupid things like having previously done a shopping list for this weekend leave me a stupid wreck. I made the list out a few days ago when I craved certain foods and hated others. I can't even look at that list now.
I am barely eating....how can I start to eat things that I couldn't bear last week. I feel as if I'm being disrespectful and pretending my baby wasn't here. After all, we hadn't even seen a scan picture or heard a heartbeat. And then I flushed my tiny baby down the loo. I had no idea what I was doing.
Sorry for the ramble, I just don't know what to do.
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cerysmax · 18/05/2013 13:52
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