Bleeding heavily at 6weeks. help me be realistic.

[missmakesstuff]

Hi, I am feeling really down, I started bleeding lightly but with red, watery bloody yesterday, went to docs and booked scan for Monday morning.
It got heavy last night with some clots, then again today is fairly constant and heavyish. can't bear to look, just am trying to get to the loo and get it over with asap. Have had a few cramps, period sort of, a few low down twinges, sharpish poking pains. I still have nausea and sore boobs, plus am boated badly, have been since 4 weeks. I really thought we might be ok as I have felt so sick and have had very strong symptoms since about 4dpo.

I know in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter, meant to be, etc, and that it is better now than later. I am sort of resigned to it now, but I can't help keep thinking and imagining that there will be a miracle on Monday, of course there won't be. Just keep veering between the two. Can't bear walking about, as I keep feeling the bleeding.
more complicated as we have inlaws staying with us, they don't know yet about the pregnancy as we were going to tell them tonight. they are going Monday, just have to get through today and tomorrow by telling them I have a tummy bug. That won' explain the crying though.

[missmakesstuff]

Sorry, rambling. Just want to be reasurred that it is all over and what to expect. have a manic week at work, can afford to be off monday but the rest of the week would be a nightmare, teacher with practical subject, exams, parents evenings, and exhibition, the end of term, all in the next two weeks, I also brought home lots of books that must go back to school for the kids, no idea how to get them there if I don't go in.

Its just shit.

[CupcakeFanatic]

I understand your stress as I too am a school teacher. I really hope the scan on Monday does not confirm your worst fears. I wanted you to know I'm here holding your hand from a distance.

Scans diagnosed my most recent pregnancy as a 'failed pregnancy' that had not progressed beyond 6 weeks and as my body was showing no signs of miscarrying I had an ERPC operation. Previous to that I had a chemical pregnancy and previous to that my beautiful daughter was stillborn. I'm still waiting and hoping for the day when I hold living babies of my own in my arms.

Try not to worry about the work stuff, it really isn't the end of the world if the kids have to work on paper instead of their books for a couple of days, even a week. Your health is more important. I know if you're like me then you feel a bit guilty on the pupils but you need to put your health first.

Xxxxx

[missmakesstuff]

Thank you so much for your thoughts Cupckae, I feel for you so much, I cannot imagine the sadness you must have felt in your situation. I hope things work out for you. I am so lucky to have DD and I am lucky not to go through a loss at a later stage, which would be heartbreaking. My sympathy for the loss of your lovely daughter x

I hate not being able to just wallow and feel bad without the worry of work, it never switches off. I am going to sit and plan tomorrow how my classes can get by for a week and will send the work all off to do, then maybe I can focus on the scan on Monday and whatever that brings. I am feeling resigned to it though, even with ibuprofen I can feel stabby pains and pulling sensations in y abdomen, it just feels empty, before I was bloated and could feel low down was sort of pushing forwards, IYSWIM. I just know its gone.

I am grateful for the thoughts, especially when you have had such sad situation.

[stirrupleathers]

mismakestuff, wanted to send you a big hug. Its so awful for you, i know you will be hoping there will be a miracle on Monday, lets hope it is still there. My sister had a m/c a few months ago. It was really upsetting for us all, but she tried again afterwards and is now 10 weeks pg so all is good!!! She is also a teacher and got signed off for a week to get over it all...lots of love xx

[Mandy21]

Not sure whether this is helpful or not and don't want to get your hopes up but I bled quite badly at 5+1 (only for an evening though), couldn't have a scan until 5+4 at which point I'd convinced myself that it was all over and I wasn't even feeling any pregnancy symptoms by then - no sore boobs etc. Had cramps too. Had my scan and everything was OK. Good luck.

[missmakesstuff]

Thanks Mandy - I just have a horrible feeling. I think also I am one for making myself worry/think the worst as I would rather be surprised. I keep getting hopeful and then get more twinges and more blood. It has been 24hrs now, it is slightly worse than when it began. If you don't mindme asking how long did the cramps go on?

I think I am actually an optimist but life has taught me to think like a pessimist as it's not as painful. Awful isn't it!?

I am just trying to waste time on MN and sort out plans for next week thinking the worst, then despite myself I will probably get my hopes up Monday, trying not to though.

[missmakesstuff]

Thanks too stirrups, glad to hear about your sister and all turning out for the best. I will probably as for the week if it doesn't go well, if it comes to it and I feel better I can go back early. I just have so much on, thinking about it I can do some at home. Problem is I am never ill, people are going to wonder, especially if I am getting on with things via email etc.

It annoys me as I know there are people who wouldn't give it half a thought and happily have time off for a broken nail.

[LittlePeaPod]

MissMakes. I am so sorry for this. We are on the Other thread also and I couldnt read and run. I just wanted to say I really hope all is positive for Monday. I have heard many positive outcomes in these situations.

I understand how painful and worrying this is for you. I mc in March this year and it was the most painful experience. I blamed myself and thought "what if I had done this or what if I hadn't done that". In reality it's wasn't meant to be for us. Whilst mc in hospital the consultant told me that women can sometimes have heavy bleeds and be ok. So you never know. I am keeping everything crossed for you. My thoughts are with you and your DH.

[Mandy21]

Had cramps during the evening and overnight. Got everything x'd for you.

[missmakesstuff]

Thanks to you both, am still bleeding, sometimes lightly but very dark and with small clots. Have that period feeling in belly, small twinges and pains but no actual cramps. Back in bed, just want today over with so I can get to the scan and know for sure. Just hope its fairly easy when orgies, have heard it can be bad even at this stage which is worrying.

[missmakesstuff]

Going to try to go out for a while in a bit as the in laws are staying and can't mope about all day. Just hoping that moving aboutmight make itmove quicker, just not too quickly or while we are out. Just heard from a friend that she had her baby early hours, hoot for her, didn't hurt too badly to think about it actually. Maybe this all happening slowly is a good thing. My boobs aren't tender anymore and the nausea has gone after nearly 3 weeks of constantly feeling sick, so inevitable I think.

[LittlePeaPod]

missmakesgood luck today with the scan.

[LittleBallOfFur]

Hi missmakes, I was on the Jan 2014 thread with you, I'm so sorry for your loss. Sorry to ask and don't feel you have to answer, but have you got any follow up tests or treatment?

My scans today showed no signs of the baby but they did a blood test and want me to go back on wed for another one, they said to check hormone levels and rule out an ectopic pregnancy.

Thinking of you, it's very hard isn't it

[LittlePeaPod]

Little. I am so sorry for your lose. When I mc, they just let it happen naturally. I didnt get an further treatment except for pain killers. They did take bloods to check hormone levels and I went back after a few days for more bloods to see if hormone levels were going down. They also got me to take a pregnancy test 2 weeks after confirmed mc.

[LittleBallOfFur]

Thanks littlepeapod, I think it's the same for me then, though they scared me by mentioning ectopic pregnancy - think they're just ruling that out though with the blood tests..

Have told some friends and family now and feeling a bit better. Still hits me every now and then though, sorry to hear you've been through same xx really hope everything goes well for your pregnancy.

[LittlePeaPod]

little try not to worry about ectopic. It's standard, I had the same. It's to just make sure all ok. Glad you told some people. Always good to have people to talk to..

What you are going through is very hard. It doesn't mater how far on any of us were. You will still feel the lose. Your lose! My advice, try not to bury your pain. Also try to ignor people that say stupid things which they think is helpful...

[missmakesstuff]

Hey, thanks both littles for your thoughts, so sorry to hear about your loss littleballoffur it sounds the same, they didn't find anything, were very lovely and thorough, I was surprised as I had such strong symptoms and so little blood loss, I expected more, it had even stopped monday morning. They did a blood test and said I need another on weds too, I feel like then I can move on, its just to check levels are falling. I got myself some liquid tonic stuff with extra iron, which should help perk me up as feeling washed out, had a bath and a bottle of red and a good cry last night and feeling much better today, the symptoms are fading which helps. will go back to work on Thursday as the hospital is miles away and there wouldn't be much point going in after it. We have told those that knew, mainly by text and email as I can't do it face to face yet. Have told everyone else I have a bad back. good luck to you, I hope you're able to feel better soon, it takes time I think, important to acknowledge that it is a loss, no matter how early.