I had a miscarriage a couple of months ago and although obviously being very upset I think I coped with it ok at the time. I feel fine most of the time now but it seems everyone I know is now pregnant. I HATE being told someone new is expecting, I HATE having to pretend I'm thrilled for them, I HATE having to smile when I'm told it was a happy accident, and I HATE having to say 'no, don't worry about me I already have DC1 so I'm very lucky anyway'.
I know it make me a terrible person but a few friends have had some slight problems in their pregnancy and when it's turned out to be ok I feel so sad, not because I wanted them to have bad news but because I can't help thinking why was it me that had the bad news? I don't want to become bitter but I can't seem to stop the first thought in my head being why couldn't that be me.
Why do all the newly pregnant people appear when I want to hide away from all of that?
Sorry about the rant, I know I have it a million times easier than many on this board having had just one reasonably untraumatic m/c - not sure what response I'm after really (am I just a freak for feeling so evil at the moment?)
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Moggin · 20/08/2012 23:03
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