I've had two miscarriages, the first 18 months ago at 16 weeks, and the second was 6 weeks ago at 6 weeks. After the first one I had a lot of support but I 'got over it' pretty quickly and didn't break down for no reason. After the second one I am a complete wreck. I haven't stopped thinking about it for one minute. I think it has just concreted the thought that it will never happen for me, or not easily. Nobody knows about my second miscarriage apart from DH, not even my GP (long story but I could NOT get an appointment or even a phone call for love nor money, it was terrible and I was terrified, I am actually considering a formal complaint about it all.)
I can't look at a pregnant woman without feeling teary, not even in magazines/newspapers, I cry and cry with jealousy and injustice. I can't look at anyone with a young baby, I am so jealous I can't hold myself together. I was in tears on the bus the other day when a woman was cooing over her gorgeous little baby.
I found out just now (through facebook) that a girl I was at school with has a 2 year old, and I found myself thinking why her and not me? I would never wish she didn't have her baby, but why am I being denied a child when my peers are having children?
I am only 23, I have years left to keep trying, but I can't shake this almost-panic over needing a baby.
Does it ever get better? What if I never carry a baby full term, how do you deal with that?
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I cry every time I see a pregnant woman... this isn't normal?
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whywhywhyme · 29/07/2012 04:59
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