Hi ladies first of all im sorry for all your losses ((((0))))
Heres my story, ttc for 3 years when finally august 2010 we did it! :) We was so happy and very naive to think something bad wouldnt happen to us.. First 6 weeks everything was perfect, then 6 weeks 1 day had a heavy bleed so went to a and e as it was a friday night and got told i was miscarrying and to take pain killers if the pain got to much, also told to contact midwife monday morning..Monday came when i spoke to midwife she sent me straight for a scan where to our surprise our baby was there with a healthy heartbeat! 5 days later and still spotting i went for another scan and baby was fine and growing ok. After that nothing at all so when i went for my 12 week scan i was laughing and joking before we went in for the scan only to find out my babys heart had stopped beating at 8 weeks and 5 days :( i chose to have the d&c the very next day but not before requesting another scan to double check our baby had died :( Nothing can ever prepare you for the loss of your baby and i vowed not to even ttc again as the emotional pain was sometimes to hard to handle.
Now a year later i have come to terms with the loss of our baby and realised it was through no fault of my own that my baby had died. I am currently in the process again of ttc even though i said i never would, i will never forget my angel baby and on the 15th october every year i will light a candle and leave it burning for 1 hour next to our scan photos because i loved and still love our angel we never got to meet. I made a video of all we had bought for the baby including clothes, teddies, my pregnancy diary and his/her scan pics, i would love for you all to see it but im unsure how i would go about posting it..
Anyway i wrote this to basically say it dont feel like it now but it does get easier and its sites like mumsnet that help us through our tough times :) xxxxx
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wannabeamummy · 09/10/2011 22:20
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