4 weeks

[Dominique07]

I've been single for 4 weeks now. First there was the break up. Then sorting out childcare Monday to Friday. Then there was the week or so of ex-p trying to impress me with being helpful, which meant letting me drop off DS at childminders while I picked up.
And at that stage, it was all such a novelty that it seemed like the best decision in the world and I was very happy.
Now I'm exhausted with getting DS to childminder and fighting the clock to get to work on time. Getting run down and also picking up colds and coughs.
I'm now at the stage where I'll be fine getting through the day till after dinner time. Then I'm just on the phone to anyone who will talk to me.
Desperately lonely.
Am flirting outrageously with any and every single guy...
Am always on tenterhooks waiting to see if ex-P will keep to his arranged pick ups of DS so that I might get to keep my social commitments once in a while or actually complete a full day at work.
Just the thought of someone at work asking me how I am, or the thought of getting a hug makes me burst into tears (if i am at home in private).
I love all the good bits of a relationship, and just wish I had someone to hug etc. A friend of mine told me straight off to buy a giant teddy bear... so i suppose its the normal feeling.
Am I just a desperately needy person to just wish I could replace my ex with someone new?

[wishingiwas]

You have summend up EXACTLY how I felt after splitting up with xdh. Especially the lonliness, exhaustion and feeling like bursting into tears.

It is a cliche but time is the only healer.

This is the stage when it is easy to back slide into a dead relationship. Keep strong.

Took me about 6 months before I could get through an hours without thinking about 'him'. I used to talk about ex and the situation ALL the time to anyone who would listen. Even called the smaritains - which was fab for me as meant I could talked it through without people telling me to pull myself together.

Now a few years on- hate having to talk about him or any mention of him.

[Pixie41]

Dominique,

Just wanted to send you a virtual hug: it's definitely a lonely job being a single parent. However it is very early days for you and I'm sure you will settle into some kind of a routine with DS.

I don't think you are needy at all - some people find being alone harder than others, I know.

Be kind to yourself, don't overdo it and just take each day as it comes.

Pix

[Dominique07]

Thanks Pixie and Wishing... I feel I have lost it a bit.
ex-p wanted me to have DS this weekend and I thought he should stick to his arrangement of having him...
However I caved and have given up my own plans and told him I'm missing DS and I want him here.
So now I'm going to be home on a saturday night with DS, and although I was missing him, i should make myself go out and socialise!!!
I have just been really stupid because I feel really ill and I need to sleep, and now I have DS who is not old enough to understand that I need a break and hugs.