Have no idea what to do about contact/maintenance issues with dd's dad.
DD (6) hasn't seen her dad since she was 6 months old (besides about 5 seconds when she was 9 months) so to all intents and purposes has no idea who he is (have talked to her briefly about who he is since, shown her a photo and factually explained we split up but that's it).
The history is that I left him when she was 6 months because he was controlling and consistently mentally abusive (things like waking me up at 3am to tell me off for being asleep, telling me what to do about everything and making me scared to disagree with him, cutting me off from all my friends)and also physically abusive a couple of times (pushed me over a settee and almost raped me one night), and had started getting angry with dd too (even though she was only a baby), so I see the pattern going on. He got arsey that he wasn't in control any more, had contact for about a month and then when I refused to bow to his every whim he got in a huff and refused to come and see dd, blaming me for making it too hard for him.
Since then he's made no effort to see dd and, because of the abuse, I didn't make any effort to 'force' the issue because as far as I was concerned dd and I were better off without him. He also kept threatening (through the solicitor dealing with his side of our divorce) that he was going to go for custody (or residence, whatever you call it) so the longer I didn't see him the happier I was. Then after the divorce (took nearly 3 years because he pointlessly kept delaying it by not returning forms etc) I heard absolutely nothing from him, even though he knew our phone number and address and we didn't know his because he moved out of the area.
When dd was about 4 I had to be on IS for a little while and so that included an application for maintenance. When they tracked him down they told me explicitly that he'd said if I went through with maintenance he'd push for contact, like a threat. Because it had taken so long to find him I was just about to come off IS so dropped the whole thing and heard nothing more from him.
But now dd is 6 and old enough to knowledgably ask questions and wonder about her dad I'm more and more torn about what to do. Should I try and get her contact with her dad, even though it'll make my life much harder and he may still be an arse? If I don't am I just building up resentment that she's missed this time with him? And should I want maintenance or not? I'm only just surviving at the moment so could use the money but when we were together he was always self employed and fiddled his tax returns so have no guarantees that has changed - we may not get anything anyway. Part of me wants to raise her completely by myself, not take anything from him but part of me feels indignant that he's getting off 'scot-free' when it's his daughter too.
I don't have any idea of where to start thinking about what would be best for dd/us and what she/we want.
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UnattendedToaster · 17/03/2010 20:58
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