I should want to get out there but I don't

[Mumofagun]

I have led the life of a nun since DS was conceived. He is now 8 1/2 so work that one out for yourselves! I have been under so much pressure with no help just to get by day to day, week to week, with a full time job, living in an area which is not my home town, not knowing anyone, not being able to get to know anyone i.e. mums at school etc, I wouldn't know what to do about a babysitter. Anyway, it's got to the stage that now when I am invited anywhere (infrequent) where my DS is welcome too, I don't want to go. When I do go, DS is having a lovely time and I am feeling just so out of it that I want to come home. I have just been to a work colleagues "do" at her home and I just wanted to crawl under a table or hide upstairs. I feel so sad cos of Ds but then I know my mum was just like that. My mum was never into socialising but she always said, I have a home to run, a family to keep and a husband to look after, I need my space. I haven't got any of that but sort of feel the same. She never had to work. Am I going mad, I feel so upset, like I'm destined to be some sort of hermit because I feel inadequate. Any suggestions please.

[chattysoul]

Hi there

Have you considered you just might not be that extravert and not the type to rush around madly socialising?

Do you actually WANT to mix and meet new people, is it that you feel you SHOULD rather than you WISH TO. If you don't wish to because it is a form of social depression i.e. you feel depressed/poor self-esteem then try and find a women centre locally for support/counselling to get you out and about.

However it is hard to go along and join something sometimes, you have to be ready for it.

Good luck anyway!

chattysoul x