A few weeks ago(must be coming up to 4 weeks now),when my partner of 12 years told me he wanted to separate I felt my whole world was falling apart.I didn't know what to do,and at one point I was feeling like just taking my daughter and go back to my native country,felt like there was nothing left for me here.My ex wanted me to move there with our daughter too,said she'd have the chance to have a much betetr life there (true,very true,but I also felt it would have been an easy escape for him in that he wouldn't have had to take on the same responsibility as he would have to do living in the same country as us!)
I was totally heartbroken,soo confused and couldn't get much lower.
Now I'm moving into a nice new home with my daughter(away from this pokey old flat!),and best of all,my feelings for him seems to have changed.I must've had my rose tinted spectacles on before.
Now I can so clearly see the things that were wrong in our relationship,and I can see his weaknesses and faults so clearly,and boy am I relieved that I don't have to put up with his behaviour towards me anymore!
He dragged me down,I was so confident before I met him,when I was with him he broke that confidence down year by year.
Sure,we had our good times,and I really did love him,but at times he did treat me like a complete doormat.I look forward to becoming that confident person again and to re discover who I really am,as so much of my personality and individuality kind of got lost during our relationship.There is a light at the tunnel after all!:-)
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tetti · 13/09/2007 21:01
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