Struggling and depressed

[user1495043634]

Hi all,
I've just joined this, I'm in a low place right now.
I've been alone since I fell pregnant, I won't go into the messy story.

I have a 16 month old son who I adore to pieces. However he's at such a hard age. He seems to really act up only for me. He moans, he cries, everything I do isn't good enough. I just seem to be counting down until bedtime right now.
His behaviour is only getting worse.

We are homeless & sharing a room at my mums. My mum suffers from severe depression and other health issues. We've been waiting on a home for over a year with no home likely anytime soon. We share a bed, we have no space.

My sons dad hasn't saw him since he was days old, he stays in another country. His grandparents etc are involved but only when it suits them. So they'll maybe take him for a few hours once every month. they've had him for sleepovers less than 10 times.

My life revolves around my baby, I can't express how much he means to me. But right now I'm stuck. I feel like a terrible mum.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Sorry to keep going on, I'm just so so depressed.

[Lovelilies]

It's hard. You sound fed up.
If you make yourselves 'homeless' the council will find you somewhere won't they? It will be somewhere shit for a while but hopefully you'll get a flat or something eventually.
How about getting a part time job? I work 16 hours and put DC in childminders, it's my 'break'!