I am sick of doing this alone, with people around me im still alone!
Sons dads are ok but i thought holidays would be shared and theyre not. They strictly stick to weekends, and i have them the rest of the time. Id just like a fucking decent break, you know! I know i had kids, but so did they!
I am battling with my anxiety at the minute. Well all of the time, every fucking day, but its at an all time high lately. I think its pushed me over to depression to be honest.
My parents cant help as much anymore. My dad is in remission from cancer and my mum is terminal. Doing fantastic, but obviously not as capable as before.
I am dealing with all of that worry and shit on my own. I have no friends, really. I have people...yes, but no one i would consider picking the phone up for a chat or what have you. I cannot be bothered to keep up with how friends keep up, as some days i dont even want to go outside (obviously i do since i have to), so i just forever keep people at a distance.
I have a part time job. I dont have to work, and im not expected to with how severe my anxiety is, but i wanted to. Im seriously considering quitting as its added fucking stress. But if i do i fail myself, and the message i want my kids to get!
I am sick of dealing with spoilt behaviour from my 7 year old. His dad spoils him rotten, and my household suffers because of it. I have approached dad and his response is "he doesnt do that here. He wouldnt dare" because you fucking bow down to his every fucking command! You penis!
I just want to run away and never return. Just like simba from the bastard lion king. A film i have watched over and over and over and over...hakuna matata