I need to vent: dear ExP

Dear ExP,

AIBU to think you don't babysit at weekends for your own child? It's called contact.
I don't go out and get pissed up you know- I clean the house as I've been too busy at university and being fully committed to bringing up 'our' child.
You know that child who you said this about when I was in hospital with pneumonia and you refused to look after her 'you can't expect me to change my lifestyle for a child I didn't want but love very much

AIBU to think you dropped her home 8 days ago and she hasn't heard from you since/ despite the fact she can talk on the phone?

AIBU in really not wanting to hand our dd over when it's clear you don't want her even though you shout court it I don't.

By the way: it really really grates on me you changing her when you drop her off so you can take her beloved frozen tshirt amongst other things home because you bought it.

It really grates on me that you know I'm on a low income and court ordered you to pay me fuel to drive her 2.5 hours to you, that you make me ring and ask for it five minutes before I leave because you ignore texts. It's fucking degrading but if I don't do that you shout court and our daughter misses out.

And you then have the cheek to ring and ask to have her all over Christmas to parade her around like a trophy despite only seeing her for less than 48 hours a month.
I needed to vent thank you.