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CSA.. Shall I keep money?

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rainbowfeet Sat 15-Jun-13 12:11:37

I am prepared for abuse so fire away!!!...wink

Little back ground... My ds is little over a year & was the surprise but happy event of a casual type fling. (Neighbors & friends 1st turned into a sex thing no talk of long term) anyway the Dad wanted me to terminate & I didn't/couldn't do that so chose to go ahead with pregnancy knowing I was going to be a LP (although secretly hoping he would come round to it)!

He didn't!!! Fast forward a few months.. Ds was 8 months, we had both been ignored by his dad. I had payed for & done it all by myself... Tired, emotionally drained & badgered by friends made a claim for CSA... He only then contacted me to have a go about that, made us going through DNA testing & refused to cooperate with them resulting in it being deducted from his wages!! Last month the 1st payment due but CSA said he hadn't earned enough for a deduction I assumed his boss (his mate too) was doing something dodgy & that annoyed me so I cancelled the claim figuring if he could go to these lengths then I don't want his money!!! hmm

Anyway payment has gone in my bank today (£200 + & as I've cancelled will be a one off) so do I draw it out & give it back to him??!! My principles is saying do it (although I am by no means well off), ds wasn't planned, I was on contraceptive injection but I chose not to terminate so should he have to pay... I just don't know really, taking his money has never completely sat right!! But obviously he is going to be angry because I should have stuck to that & never made a claim anyway... We are not on good terms that I could explain all that!! I feel like an evil cow!!! I wish he didn't hate me & reject my ds like this!! confused

rainbowfeet Sat 15-Jun-13 12:12:00

So so sorry it's long!!! hmm

Littleturkish Sat 15-Jun-13 12:17:32

It's a tricky one.

All sex runs the risk of pregnancy. He can tell you to terminate but you are well within your rights to not have done that and he still has responsibility towards the child regardless.

Did you tell him you didn't want his money when pregnant then put a claim in before saying to him you need help financially?

I think it is very important you repair your relationship with your child's father.

OneStepCloser Sat 15-Jun-13 12:21:27

Erm if he definitely didn't want a child then he is responsible for using his own contraception. Yes, you should keep the money it for yours and his child.

rainbowfeet Sat 15-Jun-13 12:24:32

I did say I didn't expect too much from him... But it is the way he totally ignored us that hurt so much to pass by us in the street & just look away!! None of his family know about ds either! I will be 100% honest & I still had feelings for him for such a long time so I thought if I played it his way he might change his mind about rejecting me & ds!!! Once it eventually dawned on me he wasn't going to that's when the anger set in & I made the claim. I am horrible aren't I?!!

milkymocha Sat 15-Jun-13 12:25:46

Keep it!

OpheliasWeepingWillow Sat 15-Jun-13 12:27:01

Bloody hell of course keep it

AKissIsNotAContract Sat 15-Jun-13 12:27:23

He should pay for his child. It's not about you it's about his child.

OneStepCloser Sat 15-Jun-13 12:31:28

Of course you should make a claim, he is equally responsible, burying his head in the sand is not going to make you and the baby go away. He doesn't have to have anything to do with you both (I know from bitter experience) but I'm sure he's intelligent enough to know raising a child costs money. You need to be business like about this, don't fret about him not wanting, not telling anyone, that's up to him. I know I sound harsh but having raised a child, now a young woman, on my own with no financial help from, at the time a willing partner, you need to put your baby first.

Just leave the door open for him, for your child's sake.

Littleturkish Sat 15-Jun-13 13:45:31

I think you have to put your feelings to one side and focus on developing a good relationship with the father and he needs to financially contribute.

rainbowfeet Sat 15-Jun-13 14:31:42

I tried so hard to keep things amicable... He last spoke to me when I was about 8 months pregnant & was really unpleasant saying he hope the baby died at birth & then nothing until he heard from the CSA (despite us being neighbours)! At that point I told him I had nothing to say to him now, he didn't ask to see ds or anything though. I just feel I'm dammed if I do & dammed if I don't!! If I keep it then he'll think im a money grabbing bitch who went back on her word not to ask him for anything & he can say he gave me money (barely the cost of his cot & mattress let alone everything else) & if I say to him I feel bad about involving the CSA & am sorry he will be cross anyway because of the stress it's caused him plus he still won't want anything to do with ds...

Littleturkish Sat 15-Jun-13 14:37:15

It sounds awful. Have you got RL support?

Keep the money and reopen the claim.

Email updates of your son's progress and state clearly when he wants a relationship with his son and a fresh start, to contact you.

I really hope you're ok, it sounds like a really difficult situation.

ivykaty44 Sat 15-Jun-13 14:38:58

I don't think you have any rights at all to deny your dc that money, this money isn't for you it is for your dc

I think you should contact the CSA and put the payments back into place as well

I really don't see what rights you have morally to not secure this money for your dc - put it into account for your dc if you want but don't say no on behalf of your dc as to me that is very very wrong

rainbowfeet Sat 15-Jun-13 14:59:48

Ds doesn't go without & will have a financially secure enough future thanks to my mum. It's more for me the emotional side that ds's Dad obviously feels nothing towards him & would only (after a fight) be paying because of the law not because he feels any responsibility or duty to ds which just makes me want to say.... Stick your money where the sun don't shine, we don't need you & live with your conscience!!!
He is either a really good actor or really is able to cut off his emotions.. When I was 1st pg I told him I wouldn't lie to child & he might have to face him/her when they are older & come looking for him.... He said he can cut off his feelings has done it before & will tell the child to fuck off!! If he can walk past us in the street, from where he lives to me he can hear ds cry & laugh & playconfused then He must be able to quash any parental feelings, I just really wouldn't want money from someone like that!!

ivykaty44 Sat 15-Jun-13 15:21:29

morally that money is your ds and not your money

rainbowfeet Sat 15-Jun-13 15:31:44

But I can't see into the future for my ds to either say .. Yes mum you should have taken his money it's the least he could do or to say mum you made him angry by taking money that's why he never wanted to see me!!! It seems like I can't win!! I love my ds with all my heart, I already feel so bad that he's been born into this situation & I just want him to be happy & say that I did my best by him when he was growing up. hmm

wannabestressfree Sat 15-Jun-13 15:33:42

But without being mean it's not down to your mum to provide stability. And yes he should pay. Put the money away for your child's future

Kormachameleon Sat 15-Jun-13 15:45:18

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

Sh1ney Sat 15-Jun-13 16:07:21

What he thinks of you is none of your business actually. Who cares? Put the money through CSA - it is his obligation to pay for the child he fathered - if he didn't want a child he should have taken precautions himself.

Babies cost very little- wait until he gets older and you'll wish you had sorted out the money NOW.

Stop messing about, get the claim in place , email him a photo and update every so often and reiterate that you welcome him to build a relationship with his child. And leave it at that

betterthanever Sat 15-Jun-13 21:06:25

Keep it.

susiedaisy Sat 15-Jun-13 21:14:15

He hoped his own child died at birth?!?! Bloody hell what an unpleasant arse of a man!!

Keep it

rainbowfeet Sat 15-Jun-13 21:25:20

Yep, his actual words were... I hoped you would miscarry but as you didn't I hope the cunt of a baby dies at birth!!!... Total arse eh?!

Fuck why did it take me so long to get him out of my system!!

Bollocks I shall keep it & get on with our lives without him!!!

Thank you everyone, I need to man up a little!! shock

Sh1ney Sat 15-Jun-13 23:28:46

If he truly said that about the baby then I take back the sending him updates etc. Just keep your claim in place and don't enter into any discussions with him. It is one thing to be vocal about not wanting the child, it is quite another to say what he said

chitofftheshovel Sun 16-Jun-13 00:31:01

rainbow, that is utter horredness to say about his own flesh. I would say don't open doors to him but he is still financially responsible and to re-open the CSA claim. And lots of good luck.

AllThreeWays Sun 16-Jun-13 01:31:02

It is a hard situation, and I understand where you are coming from, but yes, keep it, and continue to claim.
If it is any consolation, he could act like this for years and then suddenly decide he wants to see "his" DS. The courts would most likely allow some contact.
At least you wouldn't then be thinking " all these years you never even paid a penny and you think you can waltz back in"
Also it will be good for your son to be financially supported, it is not supporting you.

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