hi there,
was wondering if anyone could maybe give me a bit of advice?? it's nothing urgent, but its something that no-one else has really been able to help with.
ok, kwik breakdown is that i'm divorced, amazing 9yr old child whose father doesn't see him, (ex husband walked out on us when he was 6 months old and then had crap contact with him for 5 years then dropped him like a hot potato). i'm lucky that i've had a long time to get over the crap and heartbreak and whilst it sucked i managed to get trough it and have a very happy, confident, outgoing child.
2 years ago an acquaintance and i got physical and were very safe, but i fell pregnant (even the doc had a shock that i was p). wasn't planned and father was only working in teh area temp. he left area, i contacted him adn told him about pregnancy, whilst he was shocked he was ok about it but admitted that he didn't feel that he could be involved and stated that he'd just signed a contract abroad. i just told him i just wanted to know what he wanted and to be honest. so the decision to have baby was mine.
i'm now a very happy (if exhausted mother of 2). my children adore each other (i'm just the royal servant that serves the food and changes nappies - :) and we are a very happy family unit. i work part time on low wages but am thinking of reusing my degree to get back into a better paid job, but basically i pay my bills and the children want for nothing so i feel pretty blessed. i took my ex husband to the csa 4 years ago and get payments via csa for eldest (not a lot - it's amazing how he can wangel the cash in hand work!!) , but i didn't ask for anything from father of youngest. everyone keeps telling me i should, but i guess i just feel so humiliated that i fell pregnant when i really really tried to make sure i wouldn't. also the dad earns a lot and i didn't want him thinking i was after his money, i know that happened to a few of his friends where women got preg on purpose!! nightmare no! i sent him a pic of baby when he was born and then at 6 months and he replied that he didn't want any contact. after maternity leave it was touch and go whether i'd be made redundant so i sent him a text asking if he'd contribute if i was he said yes, but i heard nothing else.
i 'm finding it hard to get him out of my head, i'm very happy with my children, and in manay ways i'm happy i don't have the crap/hearbreak i had with my exhusband - that was rock bottom and made me very ill at teh time. i keep wondering if i should contact him again, but fear that he might suddenly turn in to an a* and cause us grief stops me. i don't want him in our lives. i also realise that if he isn't man enough to offer to help support the child even if he doesn't want to be involved then he's not much of a man!!.
so the nuts question to anyone out there with any kind of similar situation is this = does it ever stop floating around your head???? i get cross that i think of h im randomly, he's 'there' and i'm sure he hasn't though about me or child very much at all except for worrying about his bank balance???
i know it seems petty in comparison to many people's questions but i just wondered if anyone has anything similar??
cheers big style :)
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loopiloo · 10/06/2011 21:22
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