Hi all,
I'm looking for some advice and to hear from people who have been through similar experiences.
I'm 6 months pregnant and have lived in the UK with my husband for 8 years (I'm originally from Australia).
A few days ago, I got the call that I guess every expat dreads: my Mum's cancer has spread and she has just months left. We are all devastated as she was seeming so much better.
When she was first diagnosed with cancer 16 months ago, I was four months pregnant at the time and flew back straight away. I stayed to care for her for a month and then returned to the uk to have my 20 week scan. Sadly, at the scan we found out that our baby had abnormalities that were incompatible with life and we had to make the heartbreaking decision to say goodbye to our little girl. That was in January 2016.
Losing our baby was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through and I never thought I would get pregnant again. On a holiday to Australia in August, I found out that I was and it seemed like everything was getting better again.
My whole pregnancy has been plagued by stress and worry that the same thing will happen again, but I had started to relax after getting past the 20 week scan this time and things are going well. And my Mum's operations have gone well, her hair is growing back and my Dad and her have been making plans to come over for the birth in May.
So, finding out that she won't be here for much longer has been such a shock and hugely upsetting and confusing. My Mum wants me to stay put and have the baby in the uk and fly over once our baby is born.
I feel a desperate need to be back with her and spend whatever time she has left by her side. My husband thinks I should fly out in the next couple of weeks and have the baby over there. He would fly out a couple of weeks before my due date and we would take it from there. My dr has said it's fine for me to fly for the next few weeks.
The practicalities of it all make my brain hurt so much and I don't know how it's all going to work. Being away from my husband for 7 weeks or so while heavily pregnant is going to be so hard, and I'm worried I'll go into labour early and he'll miss the birth.
On the other hand, if I don't go and my Mum deteriorates quicker than expected, I'm worried that she'll never get to meet her grandchild and I'll regret not being there for the rest of my life.
We both have good jobs and a house and a life here that I don't want to lose, but we are thinking that I could spend most of my maternity leave in Australia for as long as my Mum has, and my husband will either try to take a career break, leave his job, or we travel back and forth as a family as much as we can afford to.
I feel so sad that it's all happening this way. I guess life is messy and imperfect but it is hard to know what the best path is to take.
I would appreciate hearing from anyone who has been in a similar situation for advice.
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izzytwobells · 13/02/2017 05:45
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