Hi everyone
I'll get straight to the point and say that I am so scared right now about my brother who has bowel cancer.
He's had it for about a year and has had two rounds of chemo and radiotherapy, and is now in a hospice after his last round of chemo last week.
My parents have been taking him to and from his hospital appointments etc for the past year, as he doesn't drive. He is 34 and has had a myriad of health issues, including bladder/kidney problems, hip problems, depression etc for a long time. His lifestyle has not been great either, and he smokes, doesn't have the best diet and has got a job to focus on or give him motivation.
After I spoke to my mum tonight, she said the doctors have said it could go either way. She said they don't really know whether the cancer will go or get worse, but it's just a case of wait and see. He has lost a lot of weight recently, and has always been pretty skinny and sickly-looking, but she said if I saw him then I would be very shocked.
He is sleeping a lot and doesn't want to see many people at this moment in time. I'm not sure whether this is because of the chemo, or if generally his body has started to shut down.
I am SO. SCARED. My parents have been doing everything they possibly can to help him and ensure he gets the best possible treatment, but the prognosis isn't looking good.
I just don't know how to cope, deal with or emotionally react to any of this. I haven't been close to my brother for a number of years, but we see each other at Christmas etc. Last year, I was really upset to see him looking so weak and ill and I don't know if I would cope seeing him so ill, but equally I couldn't live with myself if I didn't make the effort to go and see him, tell him how much I loved him, and spend my time with him.
I feel so alone, and don't want the worst to happen, but am almost going into denial in a way, as I'm not sure how I will cope if it does. I had a mental breakdown 18 months ago after a head injury, post concussion syndrome and drug induced movement disorder so this would bring back a lot of pain and grief about all of that - and dealing with something like this isn't something I feel ready for after just about getting back into life after all my problems.
I know it could go either way, but the way my parents are describing things, it doesn't seem great. I don't want to think the worst and be bleak, but am not sure how I am going to cope when things happen and reality means he doesn't survive. My husband and daughter will be the only things that will get me through this.
Please help me - I just need some words of comfort at the moment. Sad
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Life-limiting illness
Scared about my brother with bowel cancer
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NooNooHead · 17/05/2017 00:17
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