I am absolutely in a state of shock and heartbroken. Daughter left her diary open (possibly intentionally??) and I saw the words "my breasts sicken me" and I couldn't stop reading. She spoke about how she had always felt like a boy internally and since puberty hit she has disgusted at herself and her body. She mentioned feeling like this since 7. She then describes having befriended someone online who is just like her and she has been confiding in. She talks about being how called her name and "daughter" and "sister" makes her cry in the toilets.
For a bit of background she has always chosen more male gendered toys, clothes, colours etc. Even used to ask to be a boy as a young child and all her friends were boys till about 10. She has always been secretive and private but when puberty hit 18m ago it became unbeareable. She refused to wear a bra till 6m ago, wouldn't shave armpits and has never asked for sanitary products so I have just put in her draw. About 12m ago she started wearing loads of make up and then suddenly stopped in about October. She wears baggy shirts and trousers and won't wear a bra at the weekend. She has become ridiculously private spending all her time in her room and has now begun to shut her door properly to go to bed (not had door shut since a baby as scared of dark)
She cries about everything. I don't know what to do. I cannot tell my hubbie as he will be heartbroken as she is a real daddy's girl. I am just so fearful for all of our futures, especially hers. She is extremely intelligent (Oxford uni sort of clever and gets full marks in everything) but I just see her future as ruined as she will spend her life being judged and alone. She is the sort of person who is very shy so willnot cope with being stared at if she becomes known as male. I literally am broken and do not know what to do next. To top it all include df I am worried that about this new "friend" as the bit of research I have done seems to suggest he (bale was mentioned in diary) is very vocal on lots of gender dysmorphia sites and tells everyone how wonderful his life is as a F2M.
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