(I didn't realise how much I wrote, I apologise)
Im a 15, male and gay. So i basically broke all of the rules of this website :P.
Anyway, I knew I was gay when I was 5 or 6 and up until about 6 months ago I thought my parents were okay with it and wouldn't be bothered and get on with life, but 6 months ago I was on my iPod and they found some 'questionable' photographs. It wasn't highly pornographic but it was just a shirtless photo of an actor my friend sent me as a joke and I just left my iPod by my bedside. Well my intrusive dad was snooping around my room when he thought I was sleeping but I clearly saw him take my iPod, unlock it, use the passcode he saw me enter over me shoulder some time ago and went on to inspect my whole iPod until he found this photo.
I went to school the next morning and all day I was scared of what would be waiting for me at home, nothing. I was panicking all day thinking they would ask me about it but when I was at home they said nothing at all and I thought they might pull me up on it later, but they didn't. After a week I presumed they were too scared to confront me and tried to ignore it, or maybe I was paranoid and thought he saw something. But a week later he overheard them talking about it cowardly in their room before going to sleep and still nothing happened.
Since then everyday they have been 'cold' or slightly more 'distant' from me. They sometimes comment that
'too many people are gay these days, i think its because everybody goes through a phase but most of them are too stupid to realise its just a phase'
This just infuriated me, and since then I have either gone out with friends until late or just stayed in my room away from them so I didn't have to spend time with them.
This has made me come to the conclusion that just because somebody who is related to you doesn't mean for 1 second you have to love them. There are certain people that I just don't get along with so I thought why should I be close to me family if they don't care about me.
So what should I do next?
If there anything I can do?
Should I just wait it out until I can leave?
I just need to know what happens next because this is quite depressing upsetting. the word depressing is used too often in the wrong way
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eermmmm · 08/10/2011 00:16
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