Firstly... Thank you everyone for your comments and opinions... InreKly do appreciate hearing all sides...
(Deep breath... Here goes...) I found out at Christmas time that my husband had been having sex with women in hotels, via an illicit sexual website. I have been with him for 19years, and we had been having a normal married relationship, right up until that point....I viewed this website, and was very disturbed by what I saw. I vomited non stop for 20 minutes after.
After rows ( which unfortunate my thee children witnessed...which I very much regret...) ... My husband announced to our 10 year old daughter, that he 'was leaving mummy, as he no longer loved her...'. He told her to keep it a 'secret' that she couldn't tell school. Not her teacher, her best friend, not even her young brother ( 8 years of age), or even her sister ( 7 years of age...) he was planning on telling them when he was 'ready' the beginning of February half term, when he would be ready to move out, and then, I as a mother, ... Would be left with a week of them being at home, to deal with their emotions...
( my husband has previously walked out on a 2 year old son from one relationship... Then a marriage of 16 months...his second relationship...and now a third time, walking out on myself a wife and three children...)
I was in such a state of upset, that I went to my GP, and was immediately signed off from work with acute stress and anxiety, and had to forego numerous blood tests for possible sexually transmitted diseases. I was in a state of utter shock and disbelief. I was, what I thought to be, in a happy marriage...
Needless to say, my three children witnessed me vomiting on a daily basis through nerves. They all became unsettled, and thought I was ill.
'Cracks' began to appear in my 10 year old daughter. After much convincing, I went against my husbands demands, and went to the school, and told all three teachers, the situation that had been forced upon my self. I was extremely concerned for the children's welfare.
Then... February half term arrived... All the children were vomiting with the noro virus... My husband packed his bags... In front of the children.. And left 1 hour, before I was due for a pre op, at hospital for an impending operation. My three children were devastated... I had to arrange emergency child care cover, and rush to the hospital in terrible state of upset.
My husband had checked himself into a 'communial renting house' refusing to disclose his forwarding address. ( this will become apparent ) and so, both myself, and the three children had no idea as to where he was living...
A week later, I underwent surgery on both of my legs, leaving me incapacitated, in pain, and extremely in a low mental state. I still had to look after three children, and I couldn't even stand to make myself a cup of tea... With the help of family and friends... I was able to get through...
Then, a month later, my husband ( who was having contact with his three children...) took his 10 year old daughter out on her birthday, and told her half way through the meal that 'daddy had a new girlfriend' . Needless to say, this was insensitive after walking out merely 5 weeks previously, and my daughter witnessing her mother recover from an operation....
Immediately contact broke down between them.
This left my 8 year old son, and his sister who was 7 years at the time. They both continued to see their father... Despite reservations, and as a mother I encouraged contact. Then, my husband did the unthinkable... After promising to myself and our two children, all contact would be exclusive of his new partner... He tried to force an encounter. Our two children refused to get out of our family car, and get into hers ...this was merely after leaving myself, the children, the marital home, after a period of 8 weeks...
My ex... A detective inspector in the police... Was now having an affair with another detective inspector. This woman has been divorced twice..., a 19 year old son from one relationship... A 9 year old daughter from another... And having slept her way through the force, with total disregard as to whether the latest lover was married or not. ( this I have been informed by many a serving officer...)
This effort of trying to force an encounter...has had a huge initial impact on my two younger children...