Long term lurker but I very rarely post. Bit nervous about posting this thread tbh. First of all I just want to say thank you to everyone on the infertility board for being a valuable source of information, and how sorry I am that you're all on this shitty journey as well.
DH and I were supposed to have our first ivf appointment yesterday. Obviously we knew it would be cancelled so receiving a text to confirm that on Tuesday wasn't much of a shock. I've been upset about the whole situation (yes it's selfish, yes it's necessary to lockdown etc etc) but had managed to get it under control and was feeling fairly pragmatic. On 5th round of clomid so my focus was on trying not to get my hopes up this month. AF due at some point in the next few days.
Last night a close friend messaged to say she was pregnant, had first scan yesterday. I know for a fact that they only started trying in jan so must have caught first time, and also know that she wasn't broody at all and agreed to try assuming it would take a while. I was kind of expecting it but it's really hit me hard. It just seems so unfair. DH is struggling too. It's the latest in a string of pregnancy announcements that is likely to grow longer over the next few months.
I know that lots of other people are probably in, or have been in, the same position. Does anyone have any advice on how to cope with this? I can't stop crying. I'm being horrible to DH. I feel like I must be a terrible person and I'm being punished in some way. I know that sounds ridiculous. I just can't see a way out of this horrible, lonely pain at the moment. Terrified of when AF arrives in a few days, which is always hideous anyway. I'm expecting nhs ivf won't be resuming anytime soon, if at all, but obviously there's no information coming from them. The uncertainty and complete lack of timeline is exacerbating everything too.
Does anyone have any advice or tips to help me pull myself together? I promise I'm usually relatively stable and not this self-absorbed!
Thanks for reading if you've made it to the end.
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Eggling · 03/04/2020 11:27
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