Hello ladies! I'm really struggling. With life in general but TTC and ivfs have played a big part in ruining everything. I’m 37, TTC for 2,5 yrs, 2 failed ivf cycles, waiting to start ivf #3. My SIL is expecting. It's killing me. The announcement (face to face) knocked me… I told her it was insensitive and I'd have preferred text etc. I know I was wrong and over reacted, but I just couldn’t hold back my emotions… I'm struggling. I want to be supportive but I feel like I'm being emotionally stabbed all the time. If she talks excitedly about the baby I end up leaving the room. I go to the bathroom to hide and cry. SIL is having a baby shower. I want to go, I really do. I want to be happy for her and support her. We are very close… But this is so hard. I want to be a good sister. I'm really fighting all the time against depression. It's only getting worse. It's heartbreaking to even see her. I feel overwhelming sadness that it's not me who is pg. I'm so sad. I feel bad as she asked me to feel the baby kick and I froze… then left… to hide and cry. I’m so tired!!! Feel like a shit person. I want to be a good sister and aunt but I feel like my heart’s breaking.
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waiting to start ivf #3 while my SIL is expecting
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luisana · 24/09/2019 11:52
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