38th cycle, 18dpo, BFN :(

[AliceScarlett]

5th cycle of Clomid. I've pretty much given up hope, but not enough to not find this torturous. Just hurry up AF it's so unfair :(

[Twiglet2353]

Oh @AliceScarlett sending big hugs. It's shit and you shouldn't have to go through this x

[AliceScarlett]

Thank you X just what I needed to hear. Cramps now so hopefully it'll turn up soon.
I've got one cycle worth left but I'm considering not taking them. Not sure it is worth this.

[AliceScarlett]

19dpo, creamy CM, no AF signs, feel sick. WHY? ARGH.

Yes I am enjoying my pity party

[Twiglet2353]

It could be worth doing another test today? Maybe late implantation? I don't want to get your hopes up because I know how hard BFNs are on us mentally, but you're not out until AF shows up and I know I don't have the self restraint not to test every day x

[AliceScarlett]

20dpo, BFN. Freaked out and thought I saw a line but it wasn't there. DH really disappointed.
I fished the test out of the bin to shine a torch on it. A new low :(

[AliceScarlett]

That's negative isn't it

[JellycatElfie]

Sorry you’re going through this the test looks negative but I really really pray you get your BFP x

[AliceScarlett]

Thank you x

[Twiglet2353]

@AliceScarlett I'm gutted for you. Is there anything you and hubby can do today to take your mind off things momentarily? Going to IKEA every time we have a week off seems to help distract us - buy tat, spend time building it, argue about it being wonky, argue about where to put it, etc etc xx

[AliceScarlett]

I always hate having to walk through the kids section!
We are running down to Parkrun and will see a lot of friends there, the we're going for lunch, he's doing cross country and I'm cheering on. Then we will chill tonight, so it's a good day.
Think I'll ring the clinic on Monday if no AF, I've never just skipped one before.

Thank you for your help xx

[Twiglet2353]

@AliceScarlett ahh yes we also hurried through that section pretty quick last week and headed straight for the meatballs. Hope today is kind to you xx

[AliceScarlett]

🤔

[AliceScarlett]

Thoughts?

[SandysMam]

That looks like a positive to me! Is that a fresh test or the one from the bin?

[AliceScarlett]

Fresh! 4 hour afternoon hold.

Does it matter that I changed the lighting with my photos app?!

[AliceScarlett]

Didn't attach

[AliceScarlett]

Oh it did.

[Twiglet2353]

@AliceScarlett I have literally every toe and finger crossed that this is your emerging BFP!!

[JellycatElfie]

Can you show the unedited photo? Have you tried a FRER too?

[SandysMam]

Test again in the morning and keep us posted. Fingers crossed for you.

[AliceScarlett]

Unedited, it doesn't show though, I've got the shitest phone.

[AliceScarlett]

Thank you everyone for responding. I know I just have to keep going. I'll frer in the morning.

[JellycatElfie]

Hm now I can still see something on the unedited photo! Was it taken within the time frame?

[Thisimmortalcurl]

Fingers crossed !

[AliceScarlett]

Yeah it was that tiny line came up straightaway. But I reckon it is grey and not pink. Argh.