Hi guys,
Does anybody else just feel numb about all of this now? I do, I think because I try not to think about any of it anymore. Pretend its not what I want and its not happening. Erase it from my thoughts - except for the involuntary snipets that attack me when I am sitting on the train on my way to work or when I get into bed at night and I cant stop myself from Googling metformin, pco, pcos, chances of success, how long, statistics, chances of failure. Apart from that I block it all out.
Until you hear that your sister is preg after her and her husband stopped using contraception for the first time. Im happy but Im sad. Im glad for her, I was the one that told her not to wait in case she had to go through this hell. So I am glad she took my advice but it is hard. I had a cry last night. But I told myself to snap out of it.
And now it is the morning after. I dont know what to feel anymore. It all seems so pointless. She was telling me about how she has to take folic acid and I said I have been taking it for 3 years. I wanted to scream but I didnt, I would never want her to feel like she cant talk to me and I want her to enjoy this journey that I may never experience.
Infertility. What a b.
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DontCareBear · 10/10/2018 08:23
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