New baby in family, feeling so sad

[GuntyMcGee]

I met my new DN today. She's 2 weeks old and beautiful. I've come home and I'm crying my eyes out.

Found myself welling up just a little when I held her. She's so perfect and I'm so happy for DB and SiL but feeling so sorry for myself. I'm shocked at how I feel - I haven't felt like this for a long time. So jealous and sad.

Sorry, I'm not expecting replies, just needed to get that out and not sure who in real life I can say it to.

Thanks for reading xx

[MotherofPearl]

OP, I'm so sorry.
You sound very sad indeed. It's totally understandable. Be kind to yourself.

[Ilikesweetpeas]

I’ve been there, it’s so hard for you. I hope you are surrounded by understanding and compassionate family members

[MrsMozart]

I'm sorry for your sadness.

[Sleepymcsleepyson]

Aww gunty sounds like your neice is going to have a wonderful auntie. Please don't be sad, you don't know what your future holds xxx

[Harebellmeadow]

its ok to feel this way. It is natural and ok. It doesn't make you a bad person. It will pass in a while so don't repress the feeling. You are allowed to feel this way. Well done for your kind heart and kindness to DN.

[GuntyMcGee]

Thank you for your replies.

You'd think after 10 years this kind of thing would get easier. We've had so many babies born into the family in that time - first, second and third kids and not one for me - that I'm surprised that this one has caught me out.

[cherryontopp]

so sorry OP.

I felt a mix of emotions when i seen my newborn nephew, 3 and half years ago.

Now im 37 weeks with my first IVF baby.

Are u getting any closer treatment wise?

[StargazyDrifter]

So sorry to read this. Sending you big hugs. It's good of you to keep on engaging with all the family, babies etc though it must be so hard. I know it's easier said tha done, but be kind to yourself as the other emotions pass through. You sound really lovely.xx 💐