Beginning infertility journey (google hurts!)

[Cannothavethenameiwanted]

Hello!
I have finally, finally convinced my doctor to take me seriously and got a referral to the infertility clinic and have just had my first appointment with DH.....looking for people I can talk to about it as we are not telling friends or family yet.

I have amenorrhea (sp?) And in the 13 years since i "started" my periods have had around 12-13 total. Within the past two ish years ive begun to have random pain and intense clots bleeding for an hour here, day there. No birth control used for 5.5 years .... Not a single whiff of pregnancy.

Smear test negative, all past blood tests "normal". I've always assumed pcos but a vaginal scan has shown no signs ... Everything looks normal except for euterine thickness which was " a bit too thick" at 17mm (google has now terrified me - why did I google...all that keeps coming up is stuff about cancer, pre cancer and d&cs and I have had to stop looking!)

Blood taken to test thyroid and AMH and other things I can't remember. DH has to do a sample in a separate appointment.



I've always been convinced due to my lack of periods and pregnancies that something is wrong and have always assumed children weren't in my future. Honestly, at this point, I'm still convinced it will never happen ... But at the very least i would be happy with a diagnosis so I can process and plan.

So yeah, I am at the start of my diagnosis and treatment journey .. Looking for hand holding and new friends.

It feels strange to write it down and admit it!!

[Cannothavethenameiwanted]

Endometrial lining even not eutorine. Brain is buggered.

[fuzzduck]

Don't look at Google. It's depressing. It's full of negativity. It's so so hard to find success stories that don't involve IVF. I hate it. I am waiting now for first appointment at Gynaecological department at hospital after initial blood tests at first doctors appointment which showed nothing untoward. One step at a time.

[fuzzduck]

Also, I told my parents and in a way I feel better. The expectation has stopped and now the pressures for want of a better word have gone down.

[Cannothavethenameiwanted]

Good luck fuzzduck and thanks for replying. I agree that google is very negative!

We fit most of our local IVF criteria but I need to lower my BMI to qualify for any sort of treatment after diagnosis which I knew I would have too. This is going to be my driving force I think! Just incase we need it.

I found it was hard to get my partner to give fully honest answers has anyone else found this? He was answering but his answers didn't really match my own in terms of how much he drinks, how often we have sex, erection issues. I think the nurse knew he was telling little porkies when I laughed at his alcohol answer. I think he was embarrassed ... How does he think I felt I had an internal exam pmsl!

[KellyBoo800]

Are you me?!

Had my first appointment at the hospital today. Was told my husbands count was so low our only hope is ICSI, and as he has a child we will have to fund it ourself. Was also told to lower my BMI before I could be considered for treatment.

I need to lose 3 stone (but ideally more), so I am giving myself til June to shift it and hopefully more. I am going to be following a keto diet and have started as of this evening (and will be sticking to it over christmas...right now my determination to lose the weight is a lot stronger than my need to pig out on Christmas nibbles).

Wishing you all the best!

[fuzzduck]

We haven't been asked what we drink etc just yet. Regarding wheight, what is considered an acceptable wheight for such treatments? Funding IVF just pisses me off, especially since I got my tax thing that says where it has been spent, 3000 and a bit to the NHS yet Wakefield only offer one free cycle if it comes to it! Anyway..... I have stopped looking at the net so much in general because we can't afford IVF if it comes to it and even on this website it seems to be the miracle cure. Very few stories of other treatments working.

[Cannothavethenameiwanted]

I wish KellyBoo I have more than 3 stone to lose :'( it has just piled up on me without me noticing until boom; can't ignore it anymore!

Fuzzy my doctor today told me the maximum BMI for women in our area accepted for the NHS IVF is >30 ... I used to hover around the 32 mark (Still high I know) but sadly now even more weight to lose!

I can't even bring myself to think of IVF right now if I'm honest ... At this moment in time I just really want to know what's causing our issues so we have all the facts and can make an informed decision on what comes next.

[KellyBoo800]

I know how you feel! I need to lose 3 stone to get my BMI down to 35 (which is needed for private) but ideally still need to lose a lot more! This time two years ago I was very slim, had a BMI of 28 but was a very healthy size 10/12 and very happy. I'm now a size 18 and hate it! It crept on so slowly over the past year or so, but it adds up quickly!

I'm hoping by June I will have lost at least 3 stone but ideally closer to 4.

[KellyBoo800]

Also - I'm not thinking any more about IVF or fertility treatment AT ALL until the New Year. I need a break from the stress.

It's absolutely fine if you don't want to think about it yet.

[Cannothavethenameiwanted]

I feel so ridiculous but do you get jealous of people you know? I know people who have 3/4/5 kids and I'm like ..... Just one would do!

[fuzzduck]

I would say I'm jealous. I feel like I am missing out on the one thing I had my heart set on.

[Cannothavethenameiwanted]

Just wondering how things are going fuzzduck and Kelly?

I have my results appt at the end of this month. Husband has had his senen analysis done and we should get those results at the end of the month as well.

I've spent all month in a state of excited but terrified anticipation.

[fuzzduck]

Hi. We went to the hospital other day where they asked loads of questions. More blood tests. And checked my ovaries and uterus. Nothing untoward there and I need to have another blood taken at the beginning of my next period. At least things as starting to move......

[Cannothavethenameiwanted]

Good progress fuzzduck! Hopefully we both get some anwers from these bloods, although I wouldn't count on it in my case.