The only thing I can compare it to is the computer game grand theft auto. Can see that appearing in the defence "grand theft auto turned me into a psychopath and I now have to reenact all the levels for real". No, you're just one of the biggest cunts I've heard of in a long time.
I do too mike. Must be really surreal for you to think you were there before it happened. Glad you had left and didn't get caught up in it but its just incomprehensible for the families that are involved.