Hi there,
My dd is 4 and even before she was born I knew I was going to home ed. we had our struggles with her father who is a malicious narcissist and although I've been on my own with dd since she was 10 months I have worked hard to loosen his control and become a strong role model for dd.
I loved being a mum. Co slept, extended breast fed, did lots with her.
But her personality is so different to mine and I'm struggling now she is more autonomous.
She has no off switch from 5 am til 8 pm, and there is no break. She needs my complete attention . I don't have support for home ed, and I am so tired and I've lost myself.
She had two days a week at nursery and they were bliss, as an introvert it gave me the recharge time I needed.
I feel so sad that I'm not enjoying her company anymore, we used to go off on adventures but now she refuses to go anywhere and has major screaming meltdowns if I try to persuade her. I feel trapped in surburbia and drowning. We can't go to the numerous he groups as she won't go.
So with heavy heart I have accepted a school place. I am looking into if they offer flexi schooling, but it's not likely.
My parents are relieved - " ahh, cold hard reality is finally setting in" with a knowing nod.
Because all of this middle class nonsense "isn't for the likes of us. "
So I feel like a failure too. I feel like I'm letting my future dd down. But right now, I can't cope. I need respite, I'm just getting through the day.
The only upside I can see is I can always de reg at a later date.
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having to look at school after heart set on HE
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ooharmehearties · 29/04/2016 07:17
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