My son will have just turned one when I go back. I'm going back full time so that my husband can pack up work to look after him. I cried at the end of the last playgroup I took him to this week and left quickly. I'm going back to a new more demanding post and the only perk is more money. How can I stop myself bursting into tears and feeling so upset at leaving him? After all he'll be with his daddy? Any advice to make the wrench easier?
What about telling yourself that you will give it a limited amount of time (maybe 6 months) and then review the situation - ie so that you don't have to feel as though this is the way it will always be. Talk seriously with your partner about a contingency plan for if you just can't bear it - eg both working part time, or cutting down to 4 days a week, or any other option that may exist. Perhaps also plan for lovely things to do at the weekends (if you have any energy left....), and remind yourself that time spent reading your baby stories in the evening when you are home will be a really special treat for you both. And perhaps get your diary out and pencil in some days off right now - perhaps after a month back - and maybe a week off too around October - so you have things to look forward to.