i never have.
i had ds last month so am on mat leave for a potential 11 months or so. before this i worked 3 days a week in a bank for a reasonable salary.
i have worked there for 5 years and i have never enjoyed it. when i first took the job it was meant to be temporary until i found a job i wanted to do as my "career". then i got pregnant with ds1 4 months after starting and so finding the career job never really happened.
im at the point now where i dont know if i want to go back to this job. i dont agree with the ethics of the business and so find it hard to reach my sales targets, i enjoy having the balance between work and home and being off now has reinforced that i do want to be working to keep that balance. but i feel as though i am missing the early years of my children's lives for a job that i really dont see going anywhere. i dont want to be promoted in this company as it would mean more time away from home.
i know i am lucky to have a stable job in these times and i am going back to work after my maternity leave but i have to make a decision about what im going to do longterm. i think i will regret in years to come, spending my days working in this job and being stressed about it.
the thing is, i just dont know what i want to do. OH has suggested retraining, but i have no idea what i would retrain in.
im not sure why im posting but its really getting to me now, i almost feel as if im panicking that my life is going to just run away without me if i dont do something about it.
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booyhoo · 03/07/2009 17:46
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