I returned to work around three months ago post maternity haven't been enjoying it, or be frank.
While I know I need do need to work (being a SAHM isn't for me) , I was probably a little over ambitious in going back full time. It's all been a bit too much, and while little boy is doing really well at nursery and we have a wonderful supportive family who are helping us, I can't shake the famous working mum guilt.
My relationship with my boss has also deteriorated since I've returned. Its a shame as we used to have such a good working relationship, but his manner towards me has noticeably changed. For example he (inexplicably) berated me for telling my work colleagues about my changed working hours. He then bombarded me with messages on my day off about very unimportant things, and just generally has handled my return to work badly. I feel generally stressed and unhappy most of the time, I'd say.
This is all stuff I've informed his boss about, and while she has been supportive I ultimately have to work with this guy. To be honest I don't have the willpower to confront him properly at the moment.
This, coupled with the fact that a lot of things have happened in personal life this year (stepfather died earlier this year and my grieving mum was isolating on her own miles away ), plus Covid madness has just left me feeling spent, and like I can't do this anymore.
My work is making redundancies, and I'm considering holding out for VR. I would like to freelance for a while and work out what I want to do, but am not sure if now is a particularly good time (but then when is a good time?)