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How do I get back into employment after 6 years as a (very unwilling) SAHM?(80 Posts)
I would like to go back to work but here are the following difficulties:
Lack of affordable childcare - our outgoings are more than our incomings, so taking a financial hit in the assumption that I am investing in my career just isn't an option.
I am very deskilled by my experience as a SAHM - I have not been able to find sustainable work in the town I moved to, which has a high unemployment rate.
I studied OU for a bit, (Computing BSc) but as DP is out to work 6am - 8:30 or 9pm Mon-Fri I haven't been able to get the reading done, despite having ability and getting good marks (85 - 95%) on assignments, and had to postpone my course, which has upset me greatly. I have studied 2 x 30 point courses, at levels 1 and 2, but only finished the level 1 course as I was becoming more and more behind with study. I already have a degree, creative arts, and have about 6 years experience of entry level career. I didn't progress far due to health reasons (stress related) and lack of opportunities in a competitive job market.
I can't even do voluntary work due to the expense of childcare, logistics of 3 DSs (5, 4, 10 mo) and even voluntary positions do not acknowledge applications
Personally, I have absolutely no confidence left - I have been chipped away by bullying PIL, "friends" who come round to laugh at the appalling mess of our home and I now actually feel sick when I read job applications. I moved to this town 6 years ago shortly before DS1's arrival, and I haven't made many friends and really have struggled to settle here, as a mid-40s mum who just does not fit in anywhere.
Deep down I know I would not cope with any job, even shelf stacking, and sadly I have a fair amount of unpleasant life experiences which bear this out. Recently I applied for a job in a supermarket, starting at 5:30am - although I got an interview I didn't get the job and was very very upset about this, mostly because I know I would end up bursting into tears at work due to nerves (I have a very long history of this sadly)
My interview skills, presentation skills are good however - I don't send in job applications with typos, or botch job applications. I have had my CV looked at by the uni careers service, who have given it the thumbs up however I just have no recent work experience, and little odds and sods of computing courses aren't really stacking up to anything concrete, although I am aiming for a specific degree.
My CV doesn't have huge references to children on it either, just that I have had a career break to be a full time parent, and in that time I have studied and developed property.
I feel that life really is over, I am just sooooo stuck. I didn't choose to be a stuck-at-home-mum, it was all down to circumstances beyond my control, and I have hated it from the off. I have been miserable for years, although when studying I have been far far happier.
I haven't done nothing for 6 years btw, I have developed and sold 2 properties in that time and this, along with my studies, is on my CV. I am bored, frustrated and lonely and just not coping with the demands of my children (eldest is HF ASD and can be very challenging) and the loneliness of my situation, I moved away from family and friends, and feel very isolated.
I feel so trapped by my situation, especially the lack of spare time. Paid childcare to allow me to study just isn't an option sadly, low paid work isn't an option either although I am very willing to do it.
If I wait for DS 2 to start school, and only have DS3 (in 15 hours a week by then) I will be pushing 50 when I complete my studies. I just feel everything is against me.
so pleased for you!
<clicks heels to the side mid air>
Went to skip this afternoon and binned 10 black bags and loads of large flattened boxes.
Return to work will have to wait. Study will have to wait. First bin
everything in my path stuff then start to prepare to move...
I am now off to join the thread in Chat about sorting out life / house to keep myself motivated
Thanks all for your help!!!
Cheering for you, whatamigoingtodonow. Keep going!
Don't stop to think to much about what you are binning, just her rid.
You are doing brilliant. [proud]
Well, all the clothes I've chucked are really in no fit state for anything other than the recycling place, threadbare stuff, with paint marks etc.
I am on a roll!!! Flattening boxes is really clearing up space!!!
Off to pick up DS1 now
God help me
Hey, you're on a roll!
come to mine next please
Front steps now filled with stuff... 8 or 9 bags, a wallpaper table, lots of flattened boxes which are creating more problems than they are supposed to solve.
Out damn filth
Re references - I did OU, my tutor was great. I can ask. As Dr Pepper would say, what's the worst that can happen?
On Bag 8 now - mostly clothes, but rubbish too.
Interestingly, our spare room is literally sky high with boxes I have been collecting for the purpose of packing and decluttering
Salbertina I am flitting between kitchen / hall / lobby. Chucked out all our old winter coats which look like they've been lying outside for years.
The Flitting Technique is suiting me well actually. And it's lovely and sunny here, which always helps (I am very affected by the seasons)
The thing is, I am The Cleanest Person Alive - I actually used to be nicknamed Howard Hughes (he was a famous millionaire with OCD, who, interestingly, became a down and out due to his condition). It's not that I have slid into his latter phase in the same way, it's just been circumstance - I moved into a bombsite, had a baby, took on a total house refurb with 2 month baby and no help...
It's not lost on me that I can do 2 lovely house refurbs, decorating etc, but am just totally stuck at the tidying and cleaning phase. And the refurb stuff would have been soooooo easy to do in a tidy house.
Am on 4th or 5th bag now!!! (OK, 2.5 bags were already filled, but still... )
Great, look forward to the bin bag update! Which room are you conquering?
I shall flit about now strategically placing bin bags in all the rooms. Hope none of my DSs end up in them oops
FWIW I already do the 10 minute burst thing with laundry (including hanging it out), dishwasher, etc - using the kitchen timer.
As for ASD DS1, after 2.5 years on waiting lists - and not because I have let things slide, far from it in fact - he is now going to start some sort of therapy. Hopefully this will help. MN SN board has been great for me to get advice and cherry pick choice phrases about the NHS duty of care etc.
PS I have actually looked at the Squalor Survivors site before... It's like a fanzine of my existence oops
Right. Ten minutes of Black Bag Activity I can do. I do have a tendency to drift about the house like this: at the mess. Mostly .
So, 10 mins of "BBA" daily I can actually do - I can drift around with a bag. As the bag(s) fill, I will eventually see a clear way thru. Then I can again drift thru that space armed with black bags, increasing that clear space.
That has actually hit a note. It's combating the drifting and inability to stay focussed on one task that is very hard for me.
Watch this space
I shall report back to HQ later....
I would second(third) those who suggest a trip to the doc for a short course of pills.
Also - does your DH know you are feeling this low? Can you work on a strategy together to get your mutual life/work balance back? Doesn't seem fair that he does all the "work" and you have to deal with all the "life" on either part...
And ds1- can you introduce reward chart/timeout/send to room/remove tv privileges etc?
I empathise with you re his SN (i have one dc with SN too) but this does not make his "trashing the house" behaviour acceptable. Have you posted on SN boards re managing his behaviour??
Op- you are aware what the problem really is, thats an excellent start.
To be blunt, if I may, it seems as if you're stuck in "victim" mode, chasing your tail feeling totally and habitually out of control of your own life . You clearly know what you need/want as you say so v articulately but then come up with insurmountable excuses to explain why you cant make the necessary changes...
You seem very capable, very aware and very stuck.. Get some support from dh, GP, counsellor to help you through but please do something- baby steps, fill one bin liner today and post back on here, whatever.
Oh sweetheart, that's shit about the cleaner.
You can do this, you really can.
The less stuff you have then the less can be trashed by the kids.
A black bag each day, pick a room, fill the bag. Do it blitz style so 10 minutes tops at a time.
Saturday bring all the bags to the dump.
No reason why husband can't do the same, it's his house as well, he is just as responsible as you.
You will def need to get kids looked after whilst throwing old toys etc out or they will keep trying to save them.
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