Please help me as I think I am heading for a meltdown. After a year of blissful maternity leave with DS one, I think I'm heading for depression. I have worked 15 years to get into quite a good job as an academic on £40,000 pro rata (on half of this at mo). I have gone back part time, whilst DP watches baby. He works the other half at a school in nearby. The thing is it looks good on paper but I think it is doing me in trying to combine the two. DS doesn't always sleep through the night and especially seems to know when I need to sleep for work. ds is crap at getting up so i dont ask. I feel like I'm not giving hundred percent to my job because of sleep deprivation and I feel like my playfulness has gone as a mother. I feel like I'm failing on all counts and feel guilty and distant with the baby recently, when before I was so attached and bonded with him.
I do have a coaching qualification so starting my own business might be an option. I feel like I'm in a lose lose situation. If I give up the job it might be hard to get another one and I have worked hard to get where I am. I will also lose perks like a trip to Canada next year on sabbatical.If I don't give up the job I'll miss precious time with my baby that can never be repeated. Please Help sort my head out as I a heading for depression and anger, having been blissful the last year. An added stress is dps messy ways in the house. Her certainly doesn't do half, although he is deluded he does [hmmm]
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lightsandshapes · 06/12/2012 15:46
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