Hve namechanged so that I can talk freely about this.
I weigh 23 stone. I have ended up this way due to food addiction. I thas taken many, many attempts but I feel like I have reached a turning point where I just cant/wont go on like this any more.
The real me is healthy, happy, active, out-doorsy, respectful of food as a fuel etc. Things really have clicked into place mentally for me and the results are starting to show.
This is all good, but Lately, the past week or so it has hit me that I will NEVER be normal. I can get to a healthy wieght but I will always have a body that is disfigured, severely so in all likelihood. Even at the weight I am my skin sags and hangs.
This is something I always knew but I really see it now vividly, I know that surgery is an option and have done some research but the before and after results have left me feeling worse - yes excess skin is removed which must be a relief but the bodies are still misshapen, disfigured and, imo, ugly.
This has really hit me like a ton of bricks - I have spent the last week like a zombie, I'm just floored by the reality of it. I want to cry but I cant, the inevitability of it, the fact that this is how I'll be leaves me too numb to even do that.
I am doing all this - and I will continue, it doesnt diminish my will to lose the weight - knowing that the best I have ahead of me is looking passable in clothes, with the help of industrial undies.
I will never in my life take my clothes off and have someone find me attractive. I will never not be disgusted by myself. I am 30 years old ffs
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Please someone make me feel better about my skin after weight loss
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ShrinkingOrSinking · 17/08/2009 14:53
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