Hi, I have health anxiety and at the moment i'm going through a really bad time. For the past week i've had some rectal pain and discomfort, it started with me having a particularly bad flare up of ibs which i've had for about 20 years. I tend to get flare ups when stressed and the last month has been extremely stressful. Anyway i went to my gp and told him that i was worried about rectal cancer and he said that my symptoms did'nt sound indicitive of cancer and that it was most likely internal piles or a fissure, I've had piles on and off over the years but they were mainly external. He said he could do a rectal examination and i asked if he thought that it was necessary and he said that he did'nt really think so, so he gave a prescription for some suppositries. Two days later i started panicking again and decided to go back to my gp, this time it was a different one that i saw but one that knows me very well. He discussed my mental health issues and said that i'm showinh no signs of rectal cancer. He also seemed reluctant to do a rectal examination and told me to continue with the suppositries and if i felt the need to go ack for an examination then that would be fine.
He seemed a little annoyed with me, but i have been to him thinking that i have had a brain tumour, ovarion cancer, bowel cancer and worried that my kids have all kinds of cancers too. seemingly i have a cancer phobia aswell as health anxiety.
I've finished the medication but am still feeling some discomfort when going to the toilet and when i sit down. I'm just so overwhelmed by fear that it is almost paralyising and i've been getting very dark thoughts about not being here for my kids.
I'm sorry this post is long, i suppose i'm hoping that someone will come on here and say that they have had very painful internal piles. God! i'm such a wreck! My son got married yesterday and what should have been a wonderful day was tinged with this terrible fear. I'm going to go back to my gp but won't be able to go for a couple of days as i've got a busy time ahead of me. I have my cbt session tomorrow and we're going to Turkey next Monday for 2 weeks, i should be excited about it but i can't look forward to it because of this awful fear.
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kaylasmum · 21/06/2009 11:32
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