Morning all,
Hello DMCT and hello again Milky.
I'm home now Milky - I made them discharge me on Friday, but still mainly in bed with the odd toddle around the house. Thanks for letting me know about the other post. I'll stick it up on childbirth.
DMCT I'm sorry you had a dreadful experience. Part of the reason for starting this thread is that I think this sort of experience happens to a lot of women, and I think we all probably know that talking about it/time/PALS/birth trauma stuff will help eventually, but I think it also helps to have access to people who have been/will go through the same things. I think it's that thing where sometimes I don't want to be constructive I just want to talk about what's happened and how I feel.
The other thing, is that traumas like these are reasonably common and I think partly seem like traumas because I for one (and I am one for reading EVERYTHING) didn't know this was even a possibility. I think it would be better if we all realised that yes childbirth is an amazing thing, but that it is a trauma, even if, like me, you walk out of hospital 6 hours later with not a stitch. My consultants have all said the same thing - that sooner or later every woman feels the impact of birth, unless they have been tremendously diligent with their pelvic floor exercises. You only have to look at the supermarket to see that there is as much space given to sanitary products as to incontinence products. So I'm a bit annoyed about this 'trauma' because if it was more talked about and known about it would still be bloody unpleasant but we probably wouldn't all feel so traumatised because that's as much about shock as anything.
Anyway - that's my rant over with.
I am feeling a lot better today, thank you and thank goodness.
Like you Milky, the idea of intimacy went out the window. I know most of it is psychological because we actually did the deed once, just before I realised there was a problem (I thought he'd broken me!!!!). Since then the idea of libido... well.. what's libido? Bless my DH, his tender nursing is mainly in the name of getting some action I think He has been a star but it must be sooo hard for him, as physically he hasn't changed.
DMCT - do you know what kind of follow up surgery you'll be having, and if you don't mind saying, what are your symptoms now? Mine were lovely... wind from my vagina and traces of stool in my discharge after I opened my bowels (oh I have developed a right vocab about this now). Do you know what kind of consultant you'll be seeing?
My tips are:
- Ask about why a specific consultant has been selected for you. I say this because the sort of op I had can be done by gynaes, urologists and colorectals. There's a fair bit of overlap. It might be good to understand what's being recommended for you and why. I didn't ask this question because I really liked my consultant and when I Googled him (stalker? me?) he was clearly a bit of an expert on this sort of obstetric injury (I'm in the NW, where are you?). They all do things different ways and there are lots of effective ways to address these problems. Sometimes referrals are just automatic, as in, childbirth-related=gynae, when actually there might be another/better options. It's important you have as much confidence in the people treating you as possible. You deserve good treatment!
- I took my sis in law to my second appointment, more as a second pair of ears as anything, as even though normally i'm quite good in these situations, I just found myself nodding and not asking any questions. So find someone who can be a agood advocate who makes sure you get any questions answered
- Has physio been recommended to you? Physio didn't sort me out but psychologically it was really helpful and basically she helped me work on my pelvic floors which is good anyway and especially good if you're going to have surgery. So I'd ask about that, if you haven't been referred already.
- Ask about future babies (if you're contemplating having any). One of my worst moments was when I was told that if he repaired me now, I'd have to have planned c sections in future. Now, before I had my LO I'd have loved a c section, but I was traumatised because I didn't see this coming and I hated the fact that my choices had been taken away from me.
In terms of the surgery experience, I had a general and therefore don't know what went on. The nurses and hospital were amazing. I have to say though that I am glad that I am 10 months post-birth. Milky, I don't know how you and DMCT coped with newborns and all this. It has been much easier for me to deal with this with a baby in nursery and family around.
Now - that's a bit of an essay!
Hope you're both ok today...
C