I was recently diagnosed with womb cancer, a totally unexpected finding after some polyps were removed and it came as a real shock to me. Three weeks ago I had a total hysterectomy with my ovaries and cervix removed too. The results for the histology came back on Friday and it was the lowest grade and stage, as as my consultant said 'a good result'.
However, a routine chest X-ray before the op showed up what my consultant described as 'a very very tiny shadow on my shoulder'. Told me not to worry and that they see this stuff all the time. Whilst I was in hospital I had a repeat X-ray for a better look, but this has come back as inconclusive. I'm now booked in for a CT scan tomorrow. On Friday, again the consultant told me it was highly unlikely to be anything to worry about given the low grade and stage of my cancer and that it is in my shoulder. He mentioned something called a bone island. Stupidly I've googled and scared myself witless. I cannot allow myself to believe that it is nothing to worry about. I feel if I do, then if it is something nasty I won't have prepared myself for bad news even though rationally and statistically it's probably as the consultant has said. I'm clinging onto the thought that if it was something to worry about, they would have told me rather than be quite blase about it?
Because my original diagnosis was so unexpected I've convinced myself that the cancer has spread and that the Drs are lying to me when they say not to worry. I know this is irrational but I'm struggling. I want to cry a lot of the time, I've convinced myself that my shoulder hurts which makes me think that there is something in there. I've been to my GP about health anxiety before but they just gave me Valium and sent me on my way.
I'm not sure why I'm writing this, but it does help to write it all down
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DivisionBelles · 22/06/2020 19:35
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