I am so sick of this.

[Halli2020]

I’m just so sick of my life. I feel like ranting. I feel like screaming. So over a year ago I was in an abusive situation with my mum, I’m 22 years old now and long story short she has severe mental health problems and was violent to me and would barricade me in the house so I couldn’t get out. The police removed me from the property and placed me with a family friend where i sofa surfed for 5 months. This woman I was staying with was controlling aswell, would chuck out my clothes for not suiting me, would tel me I couldn’t cope on my own so I got a house share instead and a part time job in a fast food restaurant. I was on medication and away from her I was doing a lot better until I started to get very bad ocd with cleaning and people leaving their shit all over the place, slamming doors and smoking weed. I was diagnosed with ptsd and was overcoming agoraphobia aswell so shortly after this I went to the council and a few months later I got my flat. My flat is nice, but my neighbour plays music through the night when I work the next day as a care assistant, smokes weed, stamps on my ceiling, his friends get arrested outside my flat. To top it off recently I rebuilded my relationship with my mum but she’s still bad mentally. I decided to stay with her during lockdown but she’s been acting very weird. Has hidden my money, phone and my medication. I’m afraid to go home because of my neighbour and afraid to stay where I am as she’s becoming abusive again. I feel myself getting angry and tearful. My anxiety is creeping back and I don’t know what to do. If I go back home I’m cut off from all my family aswell. I do have an option to move back home but right now my heads a whirlwind and I don’t know what to do. Please help me :(

[SpideyMom]

@Halli2020 how are you doing hun? What a horrible situation you are in. Sending you a virtual hug xx

[DoorWasAJar]

hey, I just wondered how you’re doing, OP?