My dad was economically abusive to my mum and my mum was verbally and emotionally abusive to my dad. Growing up it was fights tension swearing not a happy household. I was delighted when they split up. But now as an adult I only attract abusive partners, I must give out that vibe or frequency I guess. I'm intelligent and successful at work and generally popular but I'm so ashamed of my relationship history. I have 2 kids by different dads, the first was violent the second shouted at me constantly. It took over a year to get out of my last relationship because he refused to accept it was over or to leave. In the end I got him arrested.
But now I'm broken, I've been single for 2 months and I know I'll be single for a long time because I don't trust my internal radar. I can't put my kids through anything else but I feel so lost, I used to be so outgoing and happy and optimistic and now I'm just a wreck.
How do I become the happy mum for my kids? I work then I'm cooking and tidying, there's so much to do, I'm not giving the kids the quality life they deserve and I've run out of internal reserves.
Any suggestions?
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I'm broken after a series of abusive relationships. How do I find my mojo again?
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longtimecomin · 25/04/2020 07:23
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