I don't know if anyone will be able to help me but I'm at amy wits end with this. I've had cardiac problems on and off for a few years, fluttery heart beats, fast resting heart rate mainly. Just after Christmas I was hospitalised for a few days for a different issue..I have since been diagnosed with Lupus which I am undergoing treatment for. I had an appointment through in February for an echocardiogram appointment which I ended up cancelling as I was so scared. My new scheduled appointment is this Friday, 24th May and I'm at the point of cancelling again. I know it's silly/stupid but I just can't face it. The thing is I know something is not right with my heart due to fast heart rate but I just can't face going to the appointment.
My biggest fear is that they will tell me I have to stay in the hospital after the appointment, I will flat out be unable to do that. I am very afraid of hospitals and I had a horrendous experience when I was admitted in January where I was treated very poorly.
On top of everything, I am just finishing up my degree and I have to submit my dissertation next week. My department have been amazing with me as I've been quite unwell all semester. I know I need to change some things before I submit but I just can't focus on it at the moment, I'm really struggling. My uni know I have this appointment coming up but not how anxious I am, I don't know if I should get in touch with them again? Sat here at the moment with tears streaming down my face trying to concentrate and I honestly feel like getting on a train somewhere and running away. I don't even know why I'm posting this really, just so scared and feel very alone. I don't know what to do.
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Echocardio appointment - too scared to go/hospital phobia
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kirstinm · 22/05/2019 18:23
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