I was involved in a near fatal car accident six weeks ago along with my fiancé while we were on holiday. The accident was caused by another driver who lost complete control of his vehicle and hit us straight on at about 90 mph.
My fiancé and I sustained life threatening injuries initially, and although he was injured I had very severe internal injuries which are still ongoing now from the trauma of wearing a seatbelt, which I hasten to add did save my life!
I have also been left with fairly severe neurological damage to my leg and arm and require surgery on my abdomen as soon as my body can cope with it.
I am home but am having to have adaptations and use equipment to try and function as normally as possible which is very frustrating.
I can’t help but feel angry all the time, I can’t stop crying, I hear the noise of the accident and even smell the accident and hear the voices of the people who tried to help, I watch the accident happen over and over again !! I am a health professional myself and gather these symptoms are true of PTSD.
I am now doubting everything and everyone around me, I have no interest in anything apart from wanting to spend money and buy items I can’t even use at the moment.
I am also angry at my partner as I don’t think he understands me, his injuries were not as severe as mine and he is recovering well, he believes I should be happy, I survived and as much as I know this is true I can’t feel like that at the moment, I am just very focused on my inability to function normally, my concern about my financial status, going from working to zero without sick pay.... I can’t talk to him about it as he feels I’m totally consumed with my injuries and illness and that I’m being very ungrateful !!
I hasten to add that during this stressful period my partner was so stressed and worried and alone with me when I was seriously ill that he turned on my family, which has now caused a huge divide, something which is tearing me apart too!!
I feel my life is falling apart in front of my eyes !!! Please help ... any advice greatly appreciated xx
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Bellacat16 · 23/03/2019 05:54
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