It's been confirmed...it's the 'C' word

[SpandexBallet]

And I don't mean rhymes with blunt!!
I've name changed for sensitivity but I've been a poster for a long time.

I've had a lump on my finger for about 18 months now and back in December finally found the time to get it checked at the doctors.
They sent me for an ultrasound in January and a biopsy two weeks ago.

I got the results today and they've said it's cancerous. It's grown in size over the last two weeks since the biopsy and it's starting to get in the way of the blood circulation.

I am completely dumbstruck. I've been told I'll hear on Thursday what date I have the operation to remove the lump but it will definitely be in the next two weeks.

I don't know what I'm looking for here but I just needed to write it down! Not sure what to do next or what is happening really. Just in a total spin at the moment.

[Beanymonster]

I honestly have nothing useless to say, but stay strong, I hope your okay

[Beanymonster]

*useful

[malteserzz]

I'm sorry to hear you news. Will the op be the only treatment you will need ? If you want some hand holding from people who understand come over to the tamoxifen thread, it's not just for breast cancer. I'm sure you're in shock, be kind to yourself

[MummyJemz]

So sorry to hear your news. I can't imagine how you must feel. I hope everything goes well with op. Sending lots of get well wishes

[RandallFloyd]

I'm so sorry. Cancer is an absolute bastard.

[SpandexBallet]

I don't really know about treatment. When they told me I totally zoned out into another world. She said about doing the op and then seeing if they got it all out.
Just feel lost. Haven't even told DP yet because he's not home yet. Scary stuff! I know there are people who have been through 1000x worse but at the moment it's just all I can think about.

I'm hoping wine tonight will ease it! Is there anyone here whose had this kind of thing in their hand? I've never even heard of it??

[SpandexBallet]

God my manners! Thankyou everyone for your support and kind messages! They mean so much!

[malteserzz]

Didn't Katie price have something like this years ago ? She's obviously fit and well now

[wewillmendit]

Sorry to hear this Spandex.
Am sure that Katie Price had this a few years ago.

[Rooners]

Did they say what kind it is? That would have a bearing on treatment I think as well as prognosis etc.

[SpandexBallet]

I'm not sure what type. She just said rapidly growing. I wish if had someone to do the listening for me because I feel so uninformed now but I'm sure she told me a lot more than I can remember.

I don't think it's a terrible prognosis, it sounds daft but I'm not sure tumours can spread far if they are in a finger? She just said that if it couldn't be removed by surgery completely that I'd need some localised radiotherapy but that's an if I think

[Rooners]

I've found a very good page on hand tumours which explains all the different sorts and the treatment that goes with each. There must be about 10. Would you like the link or prefer not to look for now?

None of them looks very dreadful I have to say x

[SpandexBallet]

A link would be great please rooners

[SadFreak]

I am so sorry to hear this. Being told you have cancer must come as an awful shock and its no wonder you zoned out.

Perhaps you could call your GP surgery and explain you would like to discuss it further because you were too shocked to listen when you were told. They may make an appointment for someone to explain more to you or put you back intouch with the hospital and perhaps someone may be able to explain again. If you get the chance to do this take someone with you to help ask questions, make notes and take it all in.

I hope you dont have to wait too long for your op and wish you well.

[badgerknowsbest]

Sorry to hear your news however I'm sure it's pretty common place after hearing news like that not to take in anything, I would make an appointment with gp and take your dp with you.

Wishing you all the best. My mother had a lump removed off her finger, it wasn't cancerous but she had the operation without GA and was surprised by how well it went, and how quickly it healed.

[SpandexBallet]

I think that's what I'll do. I have a few questions written down that id like answered. Work will be fun tomorrow I expect

[Rooners]

Hi there, sorry I didn't see your reply last night.

here is the link - the list on the left of the page will take you to the bit I mentioned, but thought you might want to start on page one.

Classification I think is the tab with the different sorts.

Hope you had some sleep xxx

[Rooners]

Sorry not classification - the two tabs under that. Depends if it is cutaneous (skin related) or bone etc.

[SpandexBallet]

Awful day at work. I decided only to tell my boss as he has to give me time off for the operation but I've been noticeably distracted all day so getting some questions. I only told one colleague as he is a very good friend but feeling very alone apart from him!

[Rooners]

Oh that sounds horrible. I'm sorry I wasn't online last night. It must feel very strange to have this news and not be able to share with people around you.

Thinking of you anyway x

[niceboots]

How are you today? How is your DP?

I hope you can get some better answers tomorrow. It must be very disorienting to come away from an appointment like that.