I have refrained from posting on subjects like this in the past, as I have tried to 'get on with it' but today I just feel totally down.
I have 2 lovely children who at times can test my patients (who's can't), they are not really the issue, my husband is self-employed and is continually messed about by people not paying him on time, We have money problems, last week I had no food in the cupboards, we have bills coming out of our ears, my phone has been cut off and I can't seem to manage.
15 weeks ago today I was a emergency in hospital with a ruptured ectopic, I came close to death, I don't know what to do with myself, I seem to be dwelling on the fact that I almost died and the attention and consideration I have received since from dh etc. makes me feel as if it wouldn't have mattered.
To top it all off, dh's van was due to be Tax/MOT whilst I was recovering, so to save money (as I couldn't drive) he used my car, even now I can drive again, we can't find the money to get the van sorted and he's come home today and somebody has smashed my wing mirror, I need to sort that now.
Sorry for the rant, but I have kept this inside me for a while now and just needed to write it down, not looking for any answers, just had to get it out.
6 weeks holiday not helping - roll on September.
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Mental health
so fed up
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golds · 12/08/2005 16:52
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