I feel really unlike myself. I'm normally a happy, chilled out person but in the last few days I've been feeling increasingly out of control. My son is almost six months old now and I love him to pieces. My sadness doesn't seem to be connected to him at all - he (and my hubby) are the only sunshine in my life at the moment.
I am aware that I've had a trying few months. When I run through the list it sounds quite a lot even to my own ears - an emergency c section birth after placental abruption, mastitis, misdiagnosed rectal tear which was a result of the birth meaning I suffered with pain and bleeding for six months, a car accident, and a house fire which meant we had to move into a one bed flat for a while. Oh, and I'm having an op to fix the rectal tear tomorrow under a general and my hubby (who is in the army) is going away a week on Monday for seven weeks.
I went to a wedding on Saturday and when I got there realised that we had been invited to the evening, but everyone else we are friends with had been invited during the day. I'm mystified why but it really upset me. Since then I've had a big row with my mother (I think my fault as I reacted strongly to what was a mild comment and caused an argument and bad feeling) and now I feel like a dark fog has descended. I keep trying to chivvy myself up, and even manage it sometimes, but then the fog descends and I feel like everything is hopeless. I'm tearful a lot of the time and feel so sorry for my poor darling hubby who keeps being greeted by a tearful wife when he gets home. I feel like I'm failing him.
I'm worried I've got postnatal depression but I don't think I'm doing a bad job with my son and don't feel sad around him so wonder if I've got some other form of depression. Or maybe I've just had a lot to cope with and I'm just reacting to that and I haven't got depression at all.
Does anyone else feel like this? What should I do?
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Am I depressed? If so, what should I do about it?
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Cathy000 · 05/05/2010 23:29
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