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Mental health

do you know what just fuck it all

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memoo · 30/03/2010 12:00

Can't even give a shit anymore, why am i looking towards a bunch of women who don't even know me to try and sort out the mess in my head, and lets face it at the end of the day how can anyone really give a shit about a faceless name on the computer

really i am on my own with this, i'm so fucked off with trying to make it better when its clear it never is going to be. really really had enough.

and now i'll just piss off everybody on here with my shit post, just like i piss of everyone cos i am such a fucking disaster.

can't find my way out of this hole, need to make it all stop

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ToccataAndFudge · 30/03/2010 12:01
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GypsyMoth · 30/03/2010 12:01

i dont know you memoo...or your story even....but hello anyway!

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ChickensHaveSinisterMotives · 30/03/2010 12:04

memoo, what's up?

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arolf · 30/03/2010 12:04

would it help to write down what's wrong?
and believe it or not, we do give a shit about you, faceless or not. some of the best support i've had has been from people i don't even know.
am here if you want to rant.

(well, going out for hour or 2, but will be back and will respond!)

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Blu · 30/03/2010 12:05

I'm not pissed of with you!

MN can be great, or it can be an abyss. If it is doing your head in, then best to look towards RL, but if you can be specific there may well be people who can offer relevant and supporting help.

Sorry you are feeling so bad.

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allegrageller · 30/03/2010 12:11

memoo
for you. All I can offer atm is a virtual hug ((((memoo)))) I know it's useless but I've been where you are and it sucks.

Tell you what, where are you...if you're in SE let's meet up, I have ongoing mental health issues myself but I can be fairly entertaining ;)

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allegrageller · 30/03/2010 12:12

and echo what Blu says though. In deep depression it can be so hard to get the help you need. I was down that hole myself for months and ended up in a respite centre.

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cocolepew · 30/03/2010 12:12

memoo was it you that had PND a wee while back? There's lots of people on here who can help, you're not alone and nobody is pissed off with you.

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allegrageller · 30/03/2010 12:13

T do you still need that paperwork doing?! I've been working flat out for a few days so not posting. Hope all is well. Memoo sorry for hijack.

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memoo · 30/03/2010 12:13

I'm suffering so badly with pnd and anxiety. I'm trying so hard to take each day as it comes and get through it but I just can't do it anymore. I am on high doeses of Ad's and other things but just feel as bad as ever. Do have a psych referal but don't know how to cope in the mean time.

I have better days but mostly just crap ones. My home is falling apart around me, had to tell my eldest DD to wear her dirty school jumper from yesterday because I haven't done the washing. I just told her to wipe it down with a sponge.

don't know what we're going to have for tea. not much in but can't get myself out of the door to go to the shops.

can't stop crying today. have these urges to self harm but won't because I don't want to put my kids through that.

But if I didn't have the kids then tbh I wouldn't be here now

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ToccataAndFudge · 30/03/2010 12:14

memooo - last week I told everone (basically) to fuck off and that MN wasn't the place for me to get support.

End of last week I had not one, but 2, lovely MNers come round my house (on different days) and help me do some tidying/sorting/cleaning.

So people do give a shit about faceless names on here

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expatinscotland · 30/03/2010 12:14

Memoo, please show Mr Memoo this post. You need to see your consultant again if you are feeling this low.

Please!

Don't try to make it better, that will come later, I promise.

But for now you need some more help from the professionals.

Please keep talking, though, and posting.

I have to sign off for a bit as am leaving town today, but will check back on when I can.

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memoo · 30/03/2010 12:15

allegrageller, i'm up north but thanks for the offer

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OnlyWantsOne · 30/03/2010 12:15

this will sound silly, but people do care

Ive been wehre you are right now

Write a list - do some thing, no matter how small, make little steps

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allegrageller · 30/03/2010 12:15

Are you a lone parent? Yes it's shit. I had to go home to my parents (who I don't get on with) at one point for a break. But impossible during term time.

Forget about dd's jumper. Who gives a toss about laundry when you are suffering :0 you need to take breaks wherever you can.

Staying alive for the kids is what it's all about, forget the details, your kids will not remember dirty clothes etc- it's a heroic effort at times, I know.

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memoo · 30/03/2010 12:16

expat i just can't do it

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Blu · 30/03/2010 12:16

OK, when is your referral?

And what do you have in that you could make for tea? People can help with suggestions.

Have a cookalong with MN on this thread.

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Lulumaam · 30/03/2010 12:17

do you have a crisis team contact? are you on meds and if so are you taking htem?

you will be eligible for a homestart volunteer, call them, or ask DH or a friend to call on your behalf

if your GP and HV are good, call them and ask for more support

it does get better, i've been there, and came through

can you do two things today? just two ....put some washing on and make some sandwiches for tea? that's all you need to do. sod everything else. dh can hang up the washing later. cold picnic tea is fine, my DCs love it, sandwich, crisps, fruit if you have any, yoghurt, some juice ..a bit of cucumber or carrot .. use paper plates if you have any and then no washing up!

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allegrageller · 30/03/2010 12:17

you're not near Sheffield and/or Stoke are you memoo? I am there for the next week or so, and also pop up to Stoke regularly.

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memoo · 30/03/2010 12:17

I am not a lone parent, have a wonderful dh but its getting to the point where i feel like a total burden on him. worry he'll leave me if this carrys on

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Lulumaam · 30/03/2010 12:17

he won't leave

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GooseyLoosey · 30/03/2010 12:18

Memoo - I suffer badly with anxiety. I have found that one way to deal with it is to write a timetable for the day and rigidly stick to it. No time for thinking or worrying, no deciding not to do what is on the list, just do it. In fact, its even better if someone else writes it for me. Not for everyone I know, but it really helped me when I had pnd as well. Sitting in the house were my blackest times.

How old are your dcs?

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